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2007-01-12T20:31:00.000Z

sorry guys for not updating in quite a while!

was kinda tired over the past couple of weekends due to the never ending rifle drill sessions n rehearsals for POP.. came home on fridays with sore feet and tired arms.. not wanting to even touch the computer or get outta e house..

anyways, i passed out on 11th jan! which was like 2 days ago.. the parade was a big cockup i suppose.. coz all e response i've got was that the GOH (nspi) marched like >.< and to add on to the cockup, it started raining in the middle of e parade HEAVILY. parade commander gave a run command, stunned every1, and every1 just started running n shouting. haha. just like a bunch of monkeys.

anyways, im posted to the coast guards and will be attending a 10 week training at brani base.. heard its a new place.. so i suppose im kinda lucky haha.. kinda glad ive got that posting coz its smting which i wanted all along w the v handsome uniform hahaha -=x

so passing out wasnt that a happy thing after all.. seperated from all your friends you've lived w for e past 4 mths.. kinda sad to part w e squad but its inevitable that somehow we part one day. had hiccups here and there between people, but i suppose it doesnt matters anymore once you realise that may be the last time u see that particular person again for e rest of ur life.

oh wells, so kinda excited now to report on e 22nd.. meanwhile have to take up a crash course at HTA.. have absolutely no idea what its abt.. so will update again soon =)

2006-12-25T11:11:00.000Z

i've got 50 mins to update this before i leave house for HTA..

been sucha long time since i really did any updating on this blog.. of coz lots have happened over the past few weeks..

firstly my SBT.. did i mention it in my previous posts? i did pretty badly for SBT coz of some major cockups.. but still considered as quite ok i suppose..

nx came law test which made e whole squad damn stressed.. everyone was like practically reading up notes, textbooks etc etc one nite before the test.. turned out to be okay even though most questions were nv seen before in the mcq practice questions..

nx came my bday! 21st bday spent n 'celebrated' in camp.. pretty quiet and low profiled 21st i must say.. but thanks to all the guys in camp who gave me a i-dont-know-wat bath on my BED.. was great fun though.. and also thanks to all those who wished me well thru sms-es or fone calls.. appreciated that.. but somehow i was kinda disappointed in some things that i've expected but did not happen.. shall not say more of it.. just let it be..

n its xmas today! im booking in later by 2100 hrs.. so had a mini bbq w yy sc ss cl and jy at my place.. talked cock..ate lots.. n walked over to east coast to play w some sparklers to get some xmas atmosphere by the beach.. burnt my thumb by the sparkler though..had one big blister on it.. went back to my pl after that to exchange presents between all of us.. thanks guys for all the presents! haha.. first time i bought so mani xmas presents to exchange.. v fun i must say.. sent em all home after that coz its pretty late and didnt want em to take cabs..

ohkays.. i better be going.. gonna look for some bks to read during my hell lotsa free time in camp.. lets hope it rains everyday nx week! so all i nid to do is to eat slp eat slp n eat. -x

2006-12-09T14:30:00.000Z

I AM 2KG AWAY FROM MY DREAM WEIGHT!! :D:D:D

2 more kg to go.. 1 month and 2 kilos to shed :x

if you're wondering, i'm 81 now.. 8-9kg lost since poly days. haha..

n i lost a kg miraculously last week while not doing anything..most of my time was spent walking arnd, slping in bunk, sitting in class for lessons, doing 'ten year series' for law exams.. bla bla bla.. nothing physical at all! i could've just worn a set of PT kit all e way for one whole week :D

SBT (scenario based test) was over as well, had 2 sessions and i think first session really buanged. dont wanna really talk abt it. in case anyone's wondering, sbt is a test whereby real life situations are enacted and tests us on what we are supposed to do as policemen :S

law exam's coming in a week. guess it'll be rather okay as well except for the procedures part. its a super buang-ed section lah.. 2.5hrs.. mani mani questions.. :S

went down to maybank to collect this cute looking security token for internet banking.. now logging online for banking svcs are so troublesome as well :(

this is a rather random post.. just thought it'll be nice to write something after so long.. haha..

anyways, POP IS COMING SOON!! but before that, the new intake is coming soon too ok e 12th of dec! WOO HOO!! that leaves us w one month of full teasing and disiaoing lah :D

2006-11-24T19:56:00.000Z

hoeis!

last week was supposed to be a shiong week in camp, at least for the first 2 days. but somehow or other, it always rained at e rite time just before e shiong activity was abt to start..so the week became damn slack that i dont even know what am i doing in HTA.

went for 2 excursions this week, to places of worships and also to the police heritage centre. both were kinda cool coz we get to waste half e day away outside camp :D an hour in there is an hour too long yea..

so also had our psychometric test done which took a whopping 2 hours. basically test of ur aptitude and yada yada.. cant be really bothered coz im not aiming for neighbourhood police centre officer :D im aiming for aiport patrol! :D imagine the proximity to my house, the stewardesses to ogle at, and the sat ki-ness of carrying mp5s n walking arnd e airport :D

the 126th intake is coming in soon! and we're all pretty excited about it coz there's soon going to be a batch of people for us to shout POP LOH! at. haha.. i noe we're mean, but i guess its kinda of a tradition/culture/cycle that every1 goes thru :D imagine shouting that in their faces. bet their hearts will definitely sink w a wide open jaw :D

had shooting test in e previous week too.. got myself a marksman :D:D wooh hoO! tot i'd settle for a second class coz they took the lower score of both shoots. thats damn lame lah.. and i thought i missed alot in the frame.. apparantly all my 60rounds hit e board :D n yea my revolver was CROOKED. =/

i think thats a pretty long post.. stop here i guess..

p.s. kAo. i have to go back by 2000 on sunday evening. SIANSATION! >.<

2006-11-13T13:34:00.000Z

wooh.. i've switched to the new blogger beta.. dono whats new or up with it.. but i suppose everything remains much the same..

have not been updating for a fortnight.. life's pretty fun over at hta.. finished w several tests already.. first aid test was long over and everyone passed.. then came PDT which was pretty bad.. but i suppose most of us passed as well.. its not exactly that simple coz theres just too much things to remember.. not easy at that.. then came ippt.. haha.. im pretty short of a silver.. coz of my SBJ..9 more cm before i reach my silver.. a low quality silver but its okay! its still a silver isnt it..

in case u guys are wondering why am i home on a monday nite, thats coz we've been given a long weekend.. booked out last fri at 3pm (beat that! who gets such great ns life) and booking in only on tues 8am. haha..isnt that great! but the schedule nx week is still unknown.. guess theres a tinge of suspense among everyone.. think theres going to be a drill test as well.. SO MANY BLOODY TESTS! haha. oh well..

anyway.. im kinda tired now.. havta wake up at 530 tml morning.. as usual lah. but i think i cant wake up that early on my own bed in my cold air con room.. where its all warm and cosy under my comforter.. :S

2006-10-29T05:44:00.000Z

went on to watch deathnote last night with natalia and merry at cathay cineleisure.. quite a good show i must say.. at least it keeps my mind moving and eyes glued onto e screen.. good story w a great mix of humor and suspense.. to be continued in deathnote 2 soon i hope..

so met up with ks and his frens after movie at cuppage afterwhich went over to PS's starbucks for a cuppa.. stayed around till 1am talking abt his weird encounter with this girl he met thru irc.. haha.. a ns guy getting stalked by a girl.. thats damn interesting la.. went to esplanade after that to sit down n continue the tok cok session all e way till 3am.. e rest went home, and i stayed on alone along e 'beach' for a while.. sat and let many things run thru my mind.. from the past to the present.. from now till the future.. weighing things as to which is important and whats not.. self reflection and looking back as to how dumb i was.. so many things that i cant remember..

walked to nicoll highway after that.. almost reaching kallang before i took a cab home.. a long quiet walk along the streets.. reached home damn late that i dont really rremember when.. KO-ed e moment my head touches the pillow..

am going back to HTA soon in like a few hours.. next week will be a busy week.. good in a way that it takes things off my mind for a longer period of time.. time will pass by very quickly and soon it'll be the nxt weekend already.. life goes on as a routine.. blah..

2006-10-24T06:58:00.000Z

As promised, here's an update =)

Life's pretty good over there in HTA, doing routine stuff everyday. The usual jogs, lessons, PDTs, firing etc etc.. nothing worth mentioning of actually.. Its already my 7th week in HTA, and time do really flies in camp. going to book in alone later, and will be out on friday again =) thats sucha gd life baby :D

still pretty unsure of my future at this point of time whenever my bunk mates started asking abt what im going to do after NS. i have actually 2 choices now:

1. take on a part time degree course at MDIS if i land myself into an office job for my NS vocation

2. leave singapore to take on a course at the university of portsmouth

at this point of time, this are the only 2 real options that i have. of course, the singapore universities route is still open for me..even though singapore unis are prestigeous in terms of reputation, it will take me damn long to obtain a mere honors even with a year's exemption at NTU. time in NS is passing faster than i thought, and in a few mths time i have to start making preps for my further studies.

anyway, went to sentosa last saturday on deepavali. man it was crowded with u-noe-what. dont wanna make racist remarks anywhere in my blog. things didnt turn out as expected as the stall at siloso was closed! that means no more frisbee vballs and kayaks to rent. think we're really mountain turtles coz we've not been to sentosa for a damn long time. for me maybe almost 3 years :S had some gd fun there before heading over to vivocity for dinner at carls. it was DAMN crowded lah. as if the whole of singapore was there, deserting orchard n town. bloody hell. so went over to ps for a drink at starbucks before making our way home..

在这七个礼拜里，许多人都问我：“你是否有个女朋友？”
而我的回答一直以来都是：“没有。我已经单身了一年多了。”
他们又问：“为什么不去找一个？”

我没有办法回答他们。

一年已经不知不觉悄悄的过去了。这一年来，有悲有喜，日子过的马马虎虎。我也
很想要向前走，不过回忆无时无刻都会涌入脑海里。就有如昨天晚上，我不知道我
们是好朋友，或者比朋友来的多。我猜想，你只是把我当成一位朋友，最多也只是
个有如其他的好朋友。不过我却很明白我现在对你依然还有感觉。我的目的从2005年
9月30日那天没有改变，就是希望我们的关系不只朋友那么简单。

一年多了。你是否记得当初你对我做出的承诺吗？我天天都在期盼那一天的到来。
不知那一天是否会到来，或者我是我一直以来都在不断欺骗我自己。

2006-10-23T19:56:00.000Z

been a long time since i've updated this (as usual).

its 4am in e morning now..too tired to put anything into words/sentences..

will be back again tml w an update before i book in! =)

2006-10-06T13:17:00.000Z

hey!

i think i didnt blog last weekend coz i was so burnt out! but here i am again :D

the previous week went by pretty fast.. coz i took 2 days of light duty. didnt wan to get any light duties coz i wanted a clean record.. but in e end my knee just gave way. it was a knee sprain which was that bad, i couldnt walk/climb stairs properly without a huge limp. so took to the M.O which gave me 2 days light duty. sian! its damn boring to be in light duty.. coz all i could do was just to WATCH what e others are doing. total boredom :D

ippt test held yesterday.. and sad case coz i cant take it coz of my knee. missed one chance for ippt. but i think i still flunk my 2.4 by a few secs.. its now down to 2.4 and sbj. apparantly every1 failed at pullups, and i can pass tt station easily! hahahaha! working at iras was a gd idea. coz i trained for pullups w cl durnig work :D slackers unite! n he can do bloody 12 now. mangko. >.<

oh well. i think im going ot settle more stuff now. have to get my lifesaving cert dug out. nid to submit to swimming lessons.. aha.. sad.. alrite.. maybe i'll blog again on sunday before i book in.. meanwhile take care all!

2006-09-23T05:25:00.000Z

HI! im back!

haha.. yesterday marks e end of e 2 week confinement.. and man! those two weeks were damn hard to pass. was like counting down to bookout day since like e 2nd day w my bunk mates. bunkmates are a bunch of damn funny people, and supposedly every1 has a nickname that starts w 'boy'. like theres boyparrot, boyfart etc etc. haha.. im not going to say mine though :D

training hasnt really started coz of imf whereby almost every1 were deployed. but i guess it'll begin soon :) actually i dono what im supposed to or not supposed to say coz we've been warned damn sternly dono how mani times abt e consequences of us blogging whatever thats inside there. so well.. not gonna say much :D

anyway i havent really lost any weight,n i tink the difference between me enlisting and 2 weeks later is my hair cut. am a mangko now, thats what they cal botaks. haha..

the best thing is that i get to have a 5day work week as compared to army. hahaha! that means im free on friday 6pm to sunday 9pm :D song bo! :D

guess i'll go out later to get some things for my stay in, and also to get some presents for pple as well.. i believe so many things have happened during my stay in, and also things are beginning to change. i can sense it v strongly, even though its not that obvious yet..

2006-09-11T15:46:00.000Z

today's e last night i'll be holding onto my pink ic for e next 2 years! and im officially going botak and becoming a NSF in like 8+ hours?

had done quite a lot of thinking recently over the past few days, mulling over things that i shouldnt and also things that i should. thats what you do when boredom from all the free time gets the better of you.

i think i owe some people a sincere apology as i've yet to really done so. i've disappointed one person greatly since last year and earlier on this year, and i know i've hurt her a hell lot. i should'nt have done certain things that gave out wrong signals, or any wrong intentions. and for that i'm really, sincerely saying sorry to this person who may or may not be reading my blog. this sounds pretty cliche, but i know that a word of sorry will not serve any good given e hurt i've caused, nor does it really suffice. i know you've moved on since then, and all i can say is to sincerely wish u all the best.

theres also another person whom i've hurt, and coz of it we've grown further apart since that one fateful night. i know that she doesnt reads my blog, but i'll still say it here. i don't know what other things to say, but also another word of sorry. i know karma will soon catch up with me, but i still wish for the two people whom i've mentioned well. =)

and to yet another someone, i've actually planned to spill out whatever thats kept in my heart for the past donkey months to her. but yet i didnt muster enough courage whenever i see you in person to tell you what i've always wanted to. on e 10th sept one year ago, i was a happy man. but i've failed to keep the relationship going, for maybe it wasnt that strong after all. i still miss you, and those msges that were once sent were still kept in my hp. thats why i've been very reluctant and hesitant about selling my hp, for it kept so many memories of us in the past. i really did wanted to tell you in person all those that i've said earlier on, but well, balls shrunk i suppose.. what i do hope for, is that you still remember the promise made to me in the past. i will remember that promise for as long as the place in my heart is still filled by you, and i do hope that you wont forget it as well..

this sounds like sucha pretty sad post, but hey! on a lighter note, i'm pretty excited to get enlisted tml. a brand new kind of life, a brand new beginning. brand new friends, brand new environment, and of coz a brand new experience. a same old brand new me! :)

have pretty much finished packing my stuff, going to hit the bed soon and enjoy my air con fully =x will be confined till the 22nd of sept, not very long i suppose. so if anyone miss me (i hope there'll be pple who does), drop me a msg or give me a ring at night! i'll be more than free to entertain you! :D:D

thats all! cya guys 2 weeks later`~!

2006-09-07T16:23:00.000Z

why do i keep remembering e dates that i dont want to, and forget the dates that i'm supposed to??

in e mth of sept, theres..

10th sept
12th sept
25th sept
27th sept
30th sept

out of these 5 dates, 3 are dates which i dont wanna rmb at all..

2006-09-03T10:41:00.000Z

i've got barely 9 days now to do whatever i want to do..or even do things that i dont dare to do..

so many things that i want to say/do/act upon..some have been done.. some.. maybe nvr..

2006-09-01T13:04:00.000Z

today marks e last day of my 2 months stint over at IRAS.been great working there..knew lotsa cute n fun pple..pple like maya who loves to tok cok w me..can talk abt anything under e sun.. vincent who talks v loudly and say that we 'talk cock very loud. tok abt pple very soft', zaini whos always beo-ing at gals, aminoor who is e ultimate gayboytoy, zahara who has a super wide smile tt brightens up any bad days, justin who looks dao at first but warms up long later, and erni who loves to say 'whats e problem?' in a trying-too-hard-to-be-fierce tone, and vin who's supposedly e unlucky person with all e computers tt he used, lifah who is kpo n loves to 'what what what' and sing all day long. haha. that hv been a damn long list la.. anyway i think i gonna miss those pple over there :D especially my supervisor who seems to be pretty bo chup abt things! i lIKE!

bought chocolates for e pple i knew there, and gave one to GIAN (oni cl knows who is gian). man she has a sweet voice! too bad she's attached else heh heh heh. but i think im regretting that i didnt get her frenster or number or any form of contact. ohwells =( at least i gave her a bar of chocolate which she said was 'wow so cute!' haha =x

looking back its been a rather long time since graduation. i think i still remember e final paper which is on 28th feb if im not wrong..and i have been bumming arnd since 1st march till now..which adds up to about 6-7 mths. man i've aged. haha.. how time flies man. lets take a look at e jobs i've taken up huh..

1st job: 3day stint at AIA stapling papers and putting em in envelopes
2nd job: 1mth presenter job at sci centre, knew pple like justin (not e iras one) cecilia nicholas n bryan
3rd job: 2 weeks ACCA invigilation which pays damn well
4th job: 4days communicasia exhibition as usher where i got to noe pple like celin jiahui and shun ping
5th job: 2months job at iras as temp tax assistant

so whats next? 11 days later, and i'll be stripped of whatever hair i have on my scalp, n start waking up late n sell my life to e SPF =x oh well at least i wont be termed as a chao recruit like they do in tekong.. pretty looking forward to it, but i doubt my fitness is ever there yet. 2.4 timing seems to improve, but is it a real improvement or what i call a pseudo-improvement? ahahaha x= at least i can make it for my pullups now.. managed a 7 few days back :D 1 more pullup than my originally set target of 6 when i leave IRAS =x things and barang barang are more or less packed in, just need to organise n sort things out. must remember to bring my underwear coz i've yet to pack it in.wahaha! imagine going into camp w/o any undies. SAD CASE MAN! =x

hmm.. time is really running short, and i ought to enjoy my last few days of zobo-ing living life to fullest. n i foresee myself spending lots in e coming few days.. hais.. what mixed feelings abt entering spf =(

2006-08-12T16:21:00.000Z

i suppose when things are meant to be broken, it will. No matter how many times u attempt to fix it, somehow or other it will.

one of my prized possessions broke today. its e 3rd time it broke since i've got my hands on it. no, its not my iPod, nor anything expensive. just a keychain, which has a meaning so dear to me.

it has been almost a year since i've got e keychain. was given to me by someone w her name on it. coincidentally, it was given to be coz it broke while she took it out from her bag, and i fixed it that nite at e void deck, twisting metal w my bare hands tt both my hands turned sore. but she just decided to give it to me coz i've fixed e keychain and wanted me to keep it.

ever since then, e keychain broke several times, and each time it broke, a fear came over me. i feared that i may nv be able to fix it again. but everytime, somehow or other, i managed to fix it no matter how it broke.

tonight, it broke once more, and as usual, i fixed it as well. but how much longer can this fixing last? does it mean that e day e keychain breaks beyond repair, is the day that i will leave everything behind me? blah..

2006-08-05T18:04:00.000Z

just had dinner w e guys and gals at my place..siqi didnt come coz she was sick after e so mani days camp i guess..oh wells.. v hard to get everybody together..7 outta 8 is not that bad after all already aiye?

we had steamboat..which made us all ended up duper full and bloated..till we had no more space for deserts which was supposed to be fondue.. =x i think i ate lotsa fishballs n seaweed.. full of fish paste now in my stomach.. had some vodka w e guys coz i asked dad to get a bottle for me when he's at e airport.. absolut kurant.. v nice to drink it on e rocks.. haha.. SHIOK =x think im turning into alcoholic like jy =D now i noe why its not gd to have an opened bottle of alcohol at home and nobody's drinking it. coz i'll end up drinking it up myself.. liver cirrhosis!! elevated ALT and GGT =x

so they stayed at my place to watch e finals of superband.. apparantly i didnt knew tt was e finals coz i've not watched a single episode of e whole competition.. n they came to my room to explore which was obviously too small for e 7 of us.. talked cock a while.. looked at photos when i was young n when my parents were young.. every1 agreed that me n my dad were duplicates..haha.. sians.. tt means i'll look like my dad 30 yrs from now on.. :S

sent em home after that coz there's no more train nor bus service..hit e roads for about 1hr.. luckily everything went on fine and i did not holland e whole of sg for em.. hehe.. quite an achievement k.. from my hse to bedok to aljunied to amk to bukit timah to clementi n back to my hse.. POWER! =x i've toured e whole of sg except e southern part already.. haha..

orites.. thats all for tonite.. groggy from e 2 shots i had just now.. haha.. nites world.

2006-08-01T11:28:00.000Z

HI!

a quick update after missing all these while. been working at iras as temp tax asst, supposedly not-so-bad pay w decent working hours. people's fun over there esp at my grp ..but everyone's leaving..either outta iras to start sch or outta e grp to another or out for reservice. haha..sad case!

anyways i bought another mp3 player. for my ns needs..haha.. i dont wanna my ipod kena koped in camp..so i got a cheapo one.. and in e end it turned out BAD. LOUSY SUCKY quality. so i went back to have it changed to another model but havta top up another 20 buckaroos. ok im damn broke can :S

the countdown can begin real damn soon. essentially 6 more weeks before i bid gdbye to everyone for TEN days :S so i suppose i'll be meeting everyone real soon :D:D

anyways to e 7 other pple who may be reading my blog now, remember dinner's this saturday!! steamboaty at my place :D

2006-07-24T15:07:00.000Z

每当这种事发生的时候，难免会觉得非常无奈。想尽了办法逗人开心，把不愉快的事
情都忘记，不过都于事无补。久而久之，无奈的心情越来越严重，直到一直都会有
想把一切都放弃。告诉自己：“陈炳宏，这会是最后一次。不会有下一次，以免让
那无奈的感觉浮现。” 不过，每一次都会软下心来，不想看到自己曾经非常喜欢
的人难过。

当一切都到了现在这种地步，或许真的是时候放弃一切，把一切都包起来，收进
脑海里的回忆了。不是我不想再尝试，而是我已非常的累了。不断的尝试，都是一
样的回应和结果。

我所做过的事情，你是否知道，是否知道我所付出的一切呢？

我累了。这次是真的累了。

2006-07-18T14:20:00.000Z

work's tiring man!

anyway, im determined never to fill in any one of those survey forms w dubious backgrounds.. dubious = no company logo on it and no objectives in e survey which is written clearly..

wtf man.. aia just sent some i suppose part timers to sp's grad.. and from there got pple to fill in survey forms..when e most impt part is ur name and contact number..bloody hell.. and this agent called me from aia said i filled in an aia survey form (w me not even noeing it then). until she said i filled it in during sp graduation.. is there someplace whereby i can complain sucha matter? really its damn fuckin irritating where u give out ur numbers unknowingly for an unknown cause. bloody hell.

i tink i love to complain anyways.

work has been great.. pace picking up everyday.. been doing more n more assessments as e days went past..haha.. kinda not that monotonous coz every case is different.. but e lagginess of the computers can make u pick up a mallet and smash up e damn com.

okie.. thats all ba..short update.. blah.. still kinda pissed w e aia thing..

2006-07-12T14:58:00.000Z

handphone rings during work at 3 something.

Operator: "Hello, is this mr Tan Bing Hong?"

Me: "Yes, speaking. Who's that on the line?"

Operator: "This is (I forgot what name) calling from CMPB. We've read your letter sent earlier on this morning, and your enlistment date has been finalised. Actually, your enlistment letter has been sent out yesterday. You should receive it sometime around these two days."

Me: "Oh.."

Operator: "Your enlistment date is on the 12th of September, at the Police Academy."

Me: *eyes wide open* "Come again? Police Academy?"

Operator: "Yes."

Me: "OK! Thanks alot!"

And I have been smiling ever since I've answered that call. =D

2006-07-08T18:47:00.000Z

haha.. i think this post is long overdued.. but better late den never ya?

okie.. graduation was held on 5th july which was like err... 4 days ago? been waiting for that day since e day i stepped my foot upon SP as a freshie. lol.. so as usual, my family and i were gancheong people, and we left house a weet bit too early. so went off for some breakfast at ghim moh before going back to sp for e ceremony.. drank 2 cups of soya bean milk and bloated myself to death (which i later on regretted during e ceremony coz i nided e toilet so damn badly). didnt wanna eat anything coz was afraid of spilling watever shit i was eating onto my WHITE shirt. that would've been disastrous isnt it?

so we were a punctual lot of people, arriving at e convention centre at 830. shld've known better that SINGAPOREANS always stroll in way after the 'to be seated' time. and damn it was boring coz i was essentially sitting alone w people i dont know on my left n right. so my mouth was kinda smelly coz i had no1 to talk to =(

waited for every1 to get their dips before our turn, and minutes before we went up, sq called me (SAVIOUR!!). finally someone to talk to after like 2hrs? asked all e fei hua like 'are u sian anot? sitting alone sian rite? no 1 to tok to hor?'. essentially she called almsot every1 lah.. must've been too bored. was texting cl throughout the ceremony too. machiam gaylords sms-ing each other..

so when it was about to be my turn, my hands suddenly went COLD. haha..i know its a natural reaction but it was really cold! been 4yrs since i went onto a stage receiving an award and im not used to that feeling. lol. anyway they had this camera, which shows ur face on THREE MEGA SCREENS in e convention centre, and i looked DAMN UGLY IN IT CAN! my whole face was like BLOWN up a thousand million times and covered almost the whole of the projector screen. and me being the kpo one, turned and glanced at the screen.. even though i told myself not to before hand coz i knew it'll look weird w me glancing arnd to the screen. and after i saw myself on the screen, HORROR OF HORRORS! i turned my head back quickly. haha.. everything just went off and e whole convention centre went 'silent' coz i was just too nervous to be able to hear anything. worrying abt doign smting stupid on stage, or u noe.. 101 things that could've happened.

so after e ceremony was photo taking session! man! i've never in my life took so mani shots in a day. chatted with some lecturers, friends from yr1, ya da ya da and the list goes on and on and on.. lolx.. its like as if we're not going to see them anymore and was like hopping arnd sp finding any1 i noe to take a pic w me =D some pics below :D

e guys and gals w mingde and sc missing..

3 lecturers and us :D mr sng has always this cute expression on his face :D

ms phoon jy and me :D

me ms yee(cutest lecturer in btech!) and cl

me and geralinde (p.s. im not tweety bird)

yr1 classmates and ks's gf =x

me and jiemei

mr fraser and US!! botaks unite.. botaks shall stand together =p

ms soh and us at the supposedly picture taking hole at e new cls building.. looked kinda gay in this pic but wat the heck. =x almost full force except md =(

miss siti(siqi actually) and me

followed by yennn yennnnnn

w sc (i have big small eyes in this pic o.O)

me w mr commando to be

w chris (do we seriously look alike? so mani pple said we look so much alike). i somehow like this pic=x lotsa pimples though..

whew.. thats alot of pics i guess =x it'll better turn out well on e blog. else i'll begin killing pple. theres alot more actually, but most of em are blurred or me looking damn gayish. so for the sake of ur eyes and my reputation.. i better not post it :D

so after grad, went down to orchard to catch supermand and lunched at pastamania.. used our long expired student pass to get a cheapo 30% discount at pastamania =x superman wasnt that great.. fell aslp for e 1st 20 mins.. woke up oni after he was jumping arnd on e field..

oya.. px has flown off to aust.. all e best to u if ur reading this!!

so thats abt it.. damn long i think.. i tink i spent almost an hour on this.. yawns.. time to slp!!

2006-07-04T10:19:00.000Z

i've started work at iras today! and boy today was damn slack can. e first 3-4 hrs till lunchtime was essentially do-nothing-time. sat arnd n stone coz im kinda tireds. and came e big news.. we're going to work for 5.5 days instead of 5!! that means i work 30mins less on each day, and work for half day on sat. but counting total hours, im going to work for an additional of 2 hrs on a 5.5dww as compared to a 5dww. thats more money i guess ^^

apparantly we the lowly temps have got access to some real confidential and private info that we have to take an OATH to swear not to divulge any of those info. wahaha.. the oath was a mouthful.. tongue was pretty tied and outta breath coz each sentence was so bloody long. oh wells..

e rest of e day was spent on training.. tax tax n more tax :S im going nuts lolx. lucky for me im not going tml coz of grad!! tt means i get to skip one day of training :D

kinda excited abt grad..hee.. not everyday tt u get to go on stage ya! e last time i went on stage was almost 4 yrs ago donning my jc uni receiving e 6dists plaque for Olvls.. BOY IM OLD!!

2006-07-02T17:21:00.000Z

anybody has got any idea on the procedure of scholarship applications?

like when can i apply.. whr can i find a comprehensive list of whats available to a poly grad.. bla bla bla?

2006-07-01T06:17:00.000Z

Good afternoon Mr TAN BING HONG.

Your enlistment is between August 2006 till February 2007. An enlistment notice will be sent to you two months before your enlistment date. For further enquiries, please call our Call Center at 1800-3676767 or email to us at contact@ns.sg.

WHAT THE FUCK!!! -.- february? and wheres e exact date! knn i think they're just patronising me.

2006-06-28T16:20:00.000Z

i just killed a fly five minutes ago!! and i killed it w a piece of paper. let me describe e sequence of events :D *warning.. graphic descriptions ahead. viewers discretion is advised* (crap) hahaha.

ok theres this fly in my room (duh) which was pretty unusual coz my room is usually very insect-free, not considering the mosquitoes of coz. and i told myself, "i will not kill the fly if it does not disturb or irritate me." so fine..i was left undisturbed for 2hours or so..and just 5 minutes ago, it started CRAWLING on my leg.YES! crawling!! despite me swiping it away countless number of times, it just came back n CRAWLED. ok i think my leg's smelly, but thats no excuse to irritate me.

so.. after that last provocation, i took out a roll of rough paper, and SMACKED it while it was on the floor. and i took a look at its remains.. and DAMN ITS GROSS. ok..e whole body was stuck to e roll of paper, and when i observed more closely, i saw that the abdomen of the fly was BURST. WAHAHA. just like a balloon it BURST! and this gooey liquid just oozed out of it =x guess whats the color? :D its not green, not red, its CREAMY WHITE! damn its just -.- lah.. and guess wat.. its STICKY! how do i noe? of coz i didnt touch the fly, or e gooey stuff that came outta its abdomen for that matter. i took another piece of paper and tried to remove the fly from the roll of rough paper, and the dead fly refused to budge coz of its sticky white gooey abdominal substance. haha =x

anyway, i think i just did the fly a favour. coz i think it'll be dead soon too. what's a fly when it can't fly! rite? how do i noe that it cant fly? haha.. under normal circumstances, what are the chances of u swatting a fly w a ROLL OF PAPER? almost ZERO leh.. and i got it at my first try =D

if im a fly in my nx life, i will nv irritate people. coz they're bound to kill u. like wat i told gera, i will irritate a zebra or a horse, and fly arnd its butt to disturb it. its kinda fun to see its tail swipe from left to right just to shoo me off but to no avail :D

ok la..i tink i crapped alot.. just coz of a stupid fly i killed. i think i did it a favour lah.. let it be remembered for eternity on my blog =x

2006-06-24T20:53:00.000Z

who or what actually defines the line between 'hey, theres nothing much' and 'hey!something's brewing..time to look deeper than the surface!' ?

some actions, msgs or conversations can be intepreted in two ways.. one of which is when ur really a gd fren to the person.. or another.. i shall not elaborate further..

such a long time has passed.. does the agreement that we once had still hold? or was it long forgotten during the course of time..?

whats the purpose of telling me such things..? was it meant to be just a topic of conversation, or did it really mean something more that what it seems to be?

many questions floating in my coconut shell up here.. feeling kinda confused at this point of time. might be a case whereby im truly confused, or might be coz of the time.

its 5am in the morning now..

2006-06-22T14:51:00.000Z

wow..

work's indeed damn tough.. standing for 6-7 hours straight at one go is no easy shit man..i return home w sore legs and sore soles EVERYDAY.. and time passes ever so slowly in the exhibition hall..haha.. but luckily there's people to crap w and talk to.. so eases things up abit..

im officially out of a job after this friday..cool huh..no more new jobs awaiting me..have to start job hunting and firing resumes again.. :D

meanwhile hafta enjoy my last day at expo.. good company and expands ur horizons when ur exposed to those high tech gizmos.. :D

2006-06-19T16:40:00.000Z

i shouldnt be awake right now..

i should be sleeping in my bed.. have been tossing n turning around since 1130 and its already 1240 now..

no idea why i cant get to sleep.. given my abilities i should be able to sleep within 15minutes for im quite a pig..haha..

work starts tml.. im working as an usher at expo for the communicasia and broadcastasia.. supposedly big exhibition event w all e rich pple arnd and e latest technology in communications and broadcast around.. ohwells :S

slp slp slp please.. whr is my beloved zhou gong when i nid him e most? :S

2006-06-17T20:15:00.000Z

the night was so surreal that for once i thought i was existing in a dream.

something which i nv thought of happening did happen.

nothing much nor explosive though, but its one great night i had. time just passes so quickly by e beach talking everything under the sun (or moon for that matter).

if only time could stop, or e both of us werent feeling that tired, maybe more could've happened. or am i just looking too much into things again.?

sometimes its best to take things at face value and not try to look too much into it, for what u find might not be what you seek =)

but somehow, another part of me is telling me that things are not so simple. can someone untangle this complicated mystery?

2006-06-14T15:27:00.000Z

woots.

2 weeks of invigilation passed just like that.. great time working at expo w the people there..mainly undergrads who were all from jcs..some uni fresh grads as well.. v fun people to hang out w.. even though we talk alot, but i dont noe some of their names..LOL =x we call each other by 'HEY!'.. cool eh :D

2 weeks of invigilation..n i nv got to tok to e pretty mei mei!! even though she's attached w bf working there as well..haha.. i wasted my chance..coz on day1 i was in a team w her outside doing ushering..should've seized my chance then! wasted..see.. full of regrets.. =x

anyways im going to work in expo again for the nxt week..but this time as usher for communicasia..some event on high tech stuff i think..entrance by invitation only i THINK.. haha.. kinda formal event..have to dress as all BLACK. black shirt w black pants and shiny boots.. MIB!! =x

ok..thats about it.. update again soon :D

2006-06-10T17:12:00.000Z

Somehow or other, my mind seems to come to a blank whenever this page where I type my entry loads, even though I've got alot of things to blog about.

I have been thinking about things these few days again. Someone may call me SD-ing again, and I don't deny that. But its not as bad as before. Its more of a self reflection session done when I'm all alone in the silence of the night. I admit that I do think about certain things very often, even for the same old things, and I can't seem to explain why is that so.

I've been put on top of the world before, and have been thrown to the deepest of pits within a few days after being at the top of the world. I had been badly affected by it, but I guess I've already snapped out of everything more or less. So I guess its true that whatever that doesn't kills you only makes you stronger.

So putting that aside, I saw a scene that sort of irked me yesterday at the john little warehouse sale. If you still don't know, john little's having a warehouse sale at Singapore Expo Hall 4. I was there doing some shopping with my mum and sisters, and since I've already gotten myself my white shirt and black shirt (for graduation and work respectively), I went over to the lingerie section (yes the lingerie section) to look for my mum and sisters. While I was busy searching for my mum and sisters, I saw a couple. The guy's carrying the petite girlish handbag for the girl on one hand, and lingerie on the other. If the guy was willing and offered to carry it for the girl, I would've got nothing to say. But the girl was picking the lingerie, and forcing the guy to hold it for her. And when he did so (i guess reluctantly), she started giggling and said something like "A big guy holding lingerie. Hahaha."

I think a survey has been done quite some time back regarding guys carrying the handbags of girls, and I don't have much to comment regarding that aspect. I agree that its sweet for a guy to offer to carry it for her other half, but if he carries one unwilling due to unreasonable demands from the girl, then I think its somewhat demeaning to the dignity of the guy. Ok, it may sound a little too harsh on the demeaning of dignity part, but you guys (especially the guys) should get the drift right?

As for the comment from the girl after the guy took the lingerie, I think I need not say anymore. If I were the guy, I would've just walked out coz I think its a total insult to me as a person and that I'm not getting the most basic form of respect that a person should have.

home alone! :'(

2006-06-06T14:00:00.000Z

helo!

as e title suggests, im home alone for e nx 2 days! today's e first day, and theres 2 more days to go. whole family's off to genting for short getaway, and i didnt go coz i had to work at expo.

haha..speaking of work. invigilation's really FUN. even though its damn tiring on ur thighs and soles, but its a totally different 'feel' from sitting down at e tables doing and writing furiously on ur answer script. haha..anyway there're quite alot of prety gals there..mostly undergrads..hehe..so thats a reason to go to work everyday~ :D

so i think this is the first time im home alone-ing.. new experience for me.. at least a taste of whats life like if im overseas studying in 2 yrs time.. cooked my own dinner..spaghetti w tomatoes, mushrooms and sausages..i forgot to defrost e chicken..so yea.. no chicken to go along.. haha..and i looked damn lot..at least 2 portions i think..theres another portion sitting in e fridge waiting for me to gobble it up tml..

did some things which are done by my maid usually..suchas washing clothes ar..(hand wash hor).. keeping e stuff ar..cleaning up..taking out e dump.. bla bla bla..kinda gd exercise lah..im sweating as im doing e stuff..haha.. donid to run anymore :D

okie lo..thats abt it..dowan to type too much on it.. now i have to think of dinner for tml..haha..great.. till i update again! :D:D

2006-06-05T14:38:00.000Z

hohohoo!

home alone for the nxt 3 days!

im so gonna be independant for 3 days (yea right). i think i'll make a mess outta e whole house. LoL.

home alone = more late nites

people ask me out!! :D:D

2006-05-31T15:21:00.000Z

i just learnt an ugly truth today. professor X didnt die in xmen3. DAMN! i should've just stayed for e credits, coz e take was after the credits. kow! now i noe why its topping e us box office. coz every1 who missed e last part after the first time they watched it went to watch it for a second time. hahaha! so theoretically there are only half e actual number of people watching tt show. :x

i think im going back into e theatre and watch e whole damn bloody show till they shoo me out w a broom or smting litat.

anyway today was a great day! went out over to orchard recruit express. i dont noe how that lady jasmine got my contact, but she called me last night and asked me to go down today to register all over again. tmd. damn inefficient. waste paper and my time. coz i've already filled up that damn form once. and i should've listened and remember wat i've learnt last time in comp studies. even though i've got a dist for it, when jasmine asked me abt pivot tables and access, i recall NONE of it! hahaha. to think i used to be an access excel pro 3 yrs ago. wahaha..

anyway went over to sp to look for adrian yeo again. but as usual he's not around.. and we settled for fraser. mr fraser will help me settle my uni stuff :D:D i (L) him to e max. (for all those who dono what (L) means, go msn and type it in ur chat box =) )

so had dinner w sc and jy after that over at e glasshouse. its my 2nd time there. i really like e ambience there. coz kinda quiet and w e live singing (which wasnt too bad), its a great pl to just sit n nua n slack e evening away. so after dinner went over to orchard to walk arnd, jy got himself a tix for davinci. he's watching it alone too! hahaha!

so me n jy being the backside itchy people, stepped into e dfs galleria opposite scotts. you guys may thing 'dfs..cheapo!' haha..but NO! level 3 and 4 of the building is totally HIGH class! mroe high class den paragon. haha..for a moment u can feel as if ur walking thru e streets of paris w all e designer boutiques by your sides.

heh.. anyway i saw malvina today. was w her frens so didnt manage to catch up w her. maybe we should have a class outing eh. lolx.. now our outings are more of group outings =S

2006-05-27T19:04:00.000Z

i've just reached home from orchard, and its 3am now. haha.. watched xmen3 w jy and esther. not a real gd piece of work, at least not as gd as compared to xmen2..too little action and too little pple showing off their powers. but den again..haha..its their show :S

anyway before e movie session was dinner at crystal jade, and somehow the xiaolongbao not as nice as i expected to be..my craving totally smashed..so i had xiao long baos and my favourite suan la mien (spicy and sour noodles). its SUPERB. haha..

so after that went to M.O.S at clarke quay.. my first time clubbing, and i was v apprehensive abt going. buden i went in the end w jy and esther along w jay jz and hongrui i tink.. coz didnt wan to ps pple when i told him say i don mind going..haha.. im sucha nice guy.

as a matter of fact, i have everything against clubbing, at least some bad experiences i had in the past. not experiences in a club per se, but some other complicated incidents that caused the end of a dream. haha.. i dont think anyone of u noe what im talking about. its clubbing which changed things i guess, and im not really into clubbing due to tt incident.

but den anyway, it would've been quite a fun pl to be at if im not apprehensive abt it.. ohwell..

2006-05-25T10:17:00.000Z

hmm

helo peeps..

work was alright as usual, except for a v big hiccup where we had some problems w one person there..old *toot* who sit at office too long w/o walking..must have piles in e butt..lolx..im not going to name e person neither tt person's post, just to cover my ass in case this somehow gets around to tt person. and if tt person sues me my ass's fire will be one of samadhi fire which canot be put out. haha..

anyway, work's gonna end tml, tml's last day, end off a big BANG! haha..another halfday in fact, w 300+ more students and i'm done =) got myself 2 more jobs which are both temps actually, short temps. i just love this kinda short temp jobs, but e downside is tt theres no security in these jobs. no constant supply. haha.. so e nxt job would be invigilation (i tink i mentioned it before), another one would be ushering for some event at expo.. havta wear full black formal sia. and i've only got one black shirt. havta go get another one..lolx.and i tink can go clubbing after tt w frens if wearing all black coz black looks normal enuf. haha..

alrites, actually im kinda pissed for my fren who got complained by tt person in sci centre, but its ok. i shall contain my anger and piss-ness, and let it out tml during our bitching session. haha..participants include me justin nicholas and cecelia! haha..all great pple who're super funny :D

2006-05-19T17:24:00.000Z

ok i know i should'nt be blogging at such an unearthly hour of 1.20am in the morning, but i just got e com back into my hands from my sister. man. i think im going to suffer during e sch hols when e siblings start using e com late into e night.

so i've started working at the science centre again, a week into work already. this time round its better coz there's 4 pple working together and we have student volunteers from secondary schools. so everyday is worth looking forward to coz we don't know what kinda volunteers will we get.. esp if they're gals =x

the kids that come into e garden are pretty cute, just like the kindergarden kids i've got this afternoon. there's this boy and girl, both 3years old. e boy's shoe had its entire sole coming off and he's literally walking on his socks. and me and my partner being e gd pple, offered to put scotch tape on his shoes coz it looks pretty uncomfortable walking w a shoe w/o a sole. haha.. as for the girl, she gives goodbye flying kisses to everyone who says goodbye to her. SUPER CUTE CAN. lol. and we ended up saying gdbye to her for more than 10 times. just to see her do the flying gdbye kiss. haha.

next week's e last week at the science centre, i guess it'll be fun except for monday when i'll be talking non stop from 9am to 5pm. hahaha..good game to me lah. so after this science centre i think i'll be workign as an invigilator for 2 weeks before i fret as to being jobless all over again. haha..

till then..

2006-05-13T16:11:00.000Z

well..

went for ntu talk today at the grand hyatt hotel.. man ntu must be damn rich to hold sucha event in sucha hotel.. anyway the talk was about biological science and the biomedical sci/TCM double degree programme for those who have been accepted by the university.. hmm.. didnt learnt much from it.. guess me cl and jy went there for e food and to acc sq there..haha..

so anyway during refreshments, horror of horrors, i saw my DIDI (not real didi, a female didi) queuing up for her food! haha.. and i was called 'DA JIE' so loud lah..damn paiseh..at least 3-4 pple turned and look at the 2 siao kias..haha..e refreshments were great man! damn nice food..haha..haven been to sucha refreshment for a long long long long time.. e last one was at the workshop on diagnosis of pediatrics diseases at kkh..

so went over to suntec to collect jy's new specs for ns.. man.. it was a DAMN EX specs for ns lah..if i were e one getting my budget would be 50bucks. lol..coz the ns specs are meant to be spoilt anyway :D so after that walked arond suntec to get my mum her present (its mothers' day if u still dont noe).. bought a handbag from charles and keith..apparantly i had 15% discount? outta no whr..haha.. think its coz i used my uob card to make payment.. thats e perks of uob! :D

so went over to MS's Hans for dinner.. it wasnt bad even though jy and jzsaid it sucked.. ohya dinner was w jz and other 2 guys..haha..whom id ono lah.. lolx.. think is hong rui and delon lo.. gods of btech. haha..

well den we crapped in hans for a damn long time..almost 3 hours can u believe it! 3 hours of crapping lah.. hahaha.. fei hua lian pian man..laughed damn loud until every1 looked at us.. and a baby keep looking at me..must be i too shuai. =x=x=x

anyway saw cheeguan and lena on the train while we're on e way back.. man they're together for damn long la..5 yrs if im not wrong..4-5 yrs lah..haha.. i can still rmb so clearly the days in sec4 when he sat behind me and e whole row was teasing him abt having ai mei rls w lena..haha.. those were the days man.. sec sch days.. LoLx.. so me and sq talked alot abt sec sch oso lah.. all e stupid things we've done and all the lame system of the sch.. haha..

well.. i have two thoughts abt closing this blog down..but it holds so many entries leh..v bu she de.. how how?

2006-05-09T17:46:00.000Z

i found this entry in my old blog.. think its a waste if i dont repost it.. so well here it goes.. by the way i got it from an email a few years ago =)

When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost.

What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go! You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not part of it. Everything happens for the best.

If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try.
You'll never love a person you love unless you risk for love. Love strives in hurting.

If you don't get hurt, you don't learn how to love. Love doesn't hurt all the time. Though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love because you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall.

You cannot finish a book without closing it's chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages. Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering, and growing.

The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more that we can love ourselves.On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back on the horse. But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time. To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is risk nothing! To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose true self, to love is to risk not to be loved in return.

How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain. Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that always last for a lifetime. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should
inspire you and give you joy and strength.

But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom who they choose to be and where they choose to be. For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitless years, you should give
thanks, for you know, that there were the things that helped you grow. Loving someone means giving him the freedom to find his way, whether it leads towards you or away from you. Love is a painful risk to take but the risk must be but the risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then you'll experience the fullness of humanity and that is love. Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart. Only love can make you cry and only love knows why. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not
ready to take the risk, if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in
love.

There was a time in our lives when we became afraid to fall in love coz everytime we do, we get hurt, then I figured that's why it's called falling in love.

When you decide to love, allow it to grow. When you promise to love, refuse to let it die!

2006-05-09T17:18:00.000Z

Is an angel watching closely over me?
Will there be a guiding light I've yet to see?
I know my heart should guide me but,
There is a hole within my soul...
What will fill this emptiness inside me?
Am I to be satisfied without knowing?
I wish, then, for a chance to see..

just got this from my old blog..you guys may want to browse it if u're really bored =)

the link's at

www.tabulas.com/~bingybong

2006-05-09T16:07:00.000Z

whats w blogspot man..took sucha long time to log into this page where i can type my entry..

went over to close my bank account yesterday at bedok posb bank..and there was this pretty mei mei serving me! hahaha..and she made small talk to me too! =x okie..no details..wahha..maybe its in e line of her work..so got back some cash..became $xxx.53 richer..LoLx.. and damn they do give u exactly $xxx.53 cents down to the cents! what am i going to do w e 3 one cent coins man..

so today was the going out day! i met jy at town before meeting the rest for MI3..walked around and got myself an arm wallet so i can put my ezlink card and keys when i run at nite in case im too shagged to walk home after anyrun..lame rite..haha..when i told the rest they all went -_-

but anyway, we watched the show at the cathay! and damn..the place was SPECTACULAR!! most of us were SKs and went in going 'WAH!!NICE LEH NICE LEH!!!' haha..i noe.. mountain turtle..but i'm un-SKed today! haha.. my virgin trip to the cathay and man, i want to watch all my movies thre from now on! even jy oso said so. haha..

the show was fantastic! but some parts kinda hasty though.. could've been better, but its good overall! worth a 9.50 buckaroos watch man..haha..even though i paid oni 7 =x

not gonna spoil e show for anyone out there..rmb must catch it! and davinc's coming out nxt week..woot :D:D

anyway, a thought just flashed past my mind not too long ago at dhobby ghaut just now..should i venture into a degree which is totally not related to my poly diploma? just to make myself more employable..if say i take accounts in uni, i'll do a full 4 yrs..and guess wat? after i grad, i can get a job both in the laboratory setting and the business sector! good ain't it? but its a good whooping 4 yrs again.. any suggestions anyone?

2006-05-07T17:59:00.000Z

ok.. looks like i have not been updating for quite some time.. so here's a quickie =)

the past few days were real mundane. i mean, look, my day starts at 12 usually which is the time i wake up from my bed, and i'll do lunch and will be sitting at the com for e rest of the day till dinner. After which i'll go for tv, and more com and back to slp. that's been the routine for the past 5 days (yes 5 friggin days). I've been at home everyday being a mama's boy, watching movies, playing dota w jy and coms (more on that later), and eating snacks now and then.

so i've finally bought tft, secret as to whr i got it from =) bought it last tues i think and have been playing everyday lah. like what cl said i tink im gian already. if its during schooling period, i'll be so damn dead. now i know why jy and cl has to stay away from the com during exam period. else, haha! gg to them. i'm a noob, so if anyone wanna play call me :D playing w pple beats playing w e com all the time lah. no lame chat and kp kb-ing.

work will be starting soon (i hope). its supposed to start on the 15th lah..maybe more money for me =) its still going to be 5buckaroos per hour, but nvm lah..have to kill some time. i work to kill time and not for the money (well its maybe for the money but more of killing time). guess it'll be fun i, working w another guy i knew from the previous assignment.

one thing's that great abt this agency is that they pay u damn promptly. dont even have to wait for long before the kaching comes rolling in. my bank account number is at its all time high lah haha. think it'll go higher soon =)

and yes, i have yet to receive any news from the dearest CMPB/Mindef regarding my enlistment. if they put me into december, i think i'll just go kill myself. imagine now till december? by them i would've became a big fat lump of blubber on my bed or on my com seat, w pieces of meat and human stew in the keyboard and under the bed.

2006-05-02T10:07:00.000Z

hmm..

i've just called my supervisor of science centre to tell her that i'll be working for her next event from the 17th to the 26th of May. damn paiseh can, coz i rejected her once saying that its too far, but come to think of it, rather than stay home and rot, might as well get my ass outta e house to do some work rite? at least i'll be getting money rather than slacking at home not getting anything..haha..

but things are always that bad. a couple of hours after i've agreed to help out at the science centre (for a pay of 5buckaroos per hour i think), kellyservices called me and asked me if im free for the credit collection job i've applied for last friday. DAMN! that job's paying at 7.5buckaroos per hour and its super gd timing coz i'll only have to work at night! tamade! but anyways, i don think i want to commit for 3 mths ba. coz theres the taiwan holidays plan in e bag ya! and i dont feel nice taking leave for almost one week when im just a temp. oh well. we'll see how things go.

actualy i might be able to take on both jobs at once? coz e science centre job would be from 830 to 530, while that bank's job will be from 7 to 10. see! i've got a buffer of 1.5hrs for me to get my ass to tampines for e job. and the best thing is, i dont have to work on weekends for the sci centre, and e credit collection job at e bank requires me to work on weekends! fits perfectly isnt it! but then again, i have another job on the 29th of may, as an ACCA exams invigilator. that pays rather well too i heard. oh well. i'll just stick to my max-2-weeks-job-assignment mindset =x

2006-05-01T16:15:00.000Z

so today was they day of the meeting up for e DMDT clique which was planned a couple of days ago. not many turned up i would say, coz only 5 of us were around (sq yy cl jy and me). sc was down w some sickness and wasnt able to join us.

well we met at 1330, which wasnt 1330 to be exact coz' apparantly i was e one who reached e earliest. yy came shortly after me, and as usual, sq is e late queen. so we went over to cineleisure for sushi buffet where jy had choped a seat for us coz he wanted to meet us at cine. haha. e variety for e buffet was gd, alot better den sakae, but e service staff had a serious attitude problem. if the tables were not attached to the floor, i bet e tables will be turned over and banged every single day during e buffet period. haha..

so after that buffet (which i didnt felt like i had one coz i wasnt damn full, only full), we walked to orchard while i called mind cafe to book a pl for e 5 of us to spend some time in there. was yy's suggestion to go mind cafe and was quite a great place to be in to kill time. its located opposite paradiz centre, and basically what you do is to play board and card games inside e cafe to kill time and to relive ur childhood. haha. so e 5 of us played urm some hand slapping game, uno(which lasted really very long), cluedo and jenga. jenga was e game whr all e cold sweat came man. e tower was stacked pretty high and yy ended up being e one toppling the tower. i nv thought i could make it thru my turn though. haha.. but e forfeit was just to eat e cookies which apparantly i think tastes quite nice. LoLx =x so well we stayed there till about say 7pm and we left.

walked around paradiz centre to take a look coz im a SK (some of us will noe wats tt), but theres really nthing inside. what a waste of my time. so went over to fareast to hunt for food, but no1's interested in anything, and in e end went over to wisma to have deserts and we talked cok at the big table in the food court. and looks like a taiwan trip is in e bag! coz we were talking abt going to taiwan for a holiday during july period and it seems that yy sq and cl are interested! yey! i may still get to go taiwan after all! so tentatively we've got a rough plan, that is to go taiwan for 5 days including sat and sun during july. even had that crazy thought to go straight after graduation, whcih is to lug our luggage along to graduation. cool huh :D

had a pretty great day today, much fun and all. love hanging out in sucha grp. haha.. but if oni ss sc and md can make it it would've been so much better =D nvm. theres always another day!

*this is an updated entry. i've removed some content from the original entry that i've made in on 1st May 2006.

2006-04-26T01:41:00.000Z

i HATE to fall sick.

i dont wanna cough like im infected w Mycobacterium tuberculosis.

i DUWAN TO HAVE HEADACHES!!

Work!

2006-04-20T15:06:00.000Z

SO!!!

I've been working for almost a week now, started since last thurs at the science centre. thats why i havent been updating this blog regularly. So if you all still dont know, im working now at the science centre as someone who gives talks and presentations to pri sch kiddos at the ECOGARDEN of the science centre. LOL. man. better stop before i go on to type my speech out.

So work has been great so far, even though e pay is just a meagre $5/hr, but what i do was TOTALLY worth the money. Why? Coz effectively, i only work 4hrs max daily technically, while e other 4 hrs are meant for slacking, talking cok, and waiting for time to reach 1730 so that we can punch card and go home. LOL. on top of that, not everyday's 4 hrs of work. on some days w not that many bookings, i only have to work an hour, before i wait for 1730 to punch card again. LOL. and the best part is there's a pool table in e 'pantry' to kill time! :D :D if ur tired, u can always sleep on the damn-comfy bean bags. MAN! i must get one of those for myself. hahaha! i tell you, the bean bags are DAMN comfortable. E moment u sit into one, you wont want to stand up anymore. haha.

So today's work was one of the busiest day that i've ever encountered. did something pretty meaningful today as well. Talked to a group from the something something deaf association one. apparantly some of them can't hear, some can hear barely with a hearing aid. so talking was to them was kinda -.-, not coz i dont like it, but i dont know if they can hear me or not. but theres a translator nearby who does all e sign languages, and she's a PRO AT IT. i only noe the international friendship sign. haha. But i find it quite an experience to talk to these pple, coz you dont get to do smthing that meaningful everyday or in any jobs rite? moreover its kinda sad and i was kinda sad for them coz they're pretty old, maybe even older den me, but apparantly only having the intelligence of a pri school child, as what my supervisor told me. damn sad lah. but have to talk as normal to them, just that i have to slow down and explain and use more pointings etc. (not e _|_ point) haha

so tml's e 6th day of work i suppose, and its gonna be a not so busy day again. coz today's the mayhem of all days. LoLx. i think i spoke to over 500 students and handling those kids are not easy man.

lolx. so after nxt fri, i'll be officially jobless again once the event ends =( have to start hunting for new jobs already..as what im doing right now..hehe..in the midst of my sci centre job...........

2006-04-15T11:59:00.000Z

today was another day out!

a money spending day! haha..

went to ktv as planned a week ago..had sq yy cl and me..jy didnt make it coz he cant get his lazy ass outta the bed. oh wells. so anyway, ktv-ed for 3hrs..sq joined us late coz supposedly she overslept too.

so finshed ktv and went over to esplanade coz we wanted to take fotos..and sure did we take fotos..total photowhores man..theres almost 20+ pics on my cam alone.. and theres sq's cam too. just uploaded e pics onto e com..haha..haven even took a look at e pics.

so went over to MS for more snacks n eating, while we bummed around peninsula later to get shoes for cl..den went home after that lah..

duwan to blog so much on my daily routines..lol..coz its pretty mundane i think.. but it was a great day! had so much fun and laughter. haha..

2006-04-10T14:16:00.000Z

man.

after so many days of procrastination on exercise, i decided to move my ass outta e house today to do some serious swimming. the sun was out, and all was great. kill 2 birds w one stone, that is to get a tan and also to move some ass and muscle.

so was there at e swimming pool, and had originally decided to go for 20laps. but then, at e 18th one, i realised im still as gd as new, and i think i had e booster jab of adrenaline, and i kept going n going until i was at 32. e sun was sweltering, and i had to stop not coz of im tired (i can go till 40), but coz of my back which was rather burnt, coz i felt pain. haha.

so thought i wasnt burnt coz i looked into e mirror and saw that i was BLACK. happily went home, and now its nite time. Im feeling e heat and e PAIN of my back. i took a look into e mirror, and i see a triangular white patch around my ass, while e other parts of e body were RED. lobster red k.

haha. but burns aside, i managed 32 laps which was kinda cool coz i thought i'll most prolly be dead at e 10th. i think im going to make a resolution. i must swim 100laps everyweek! haha..cool eh. that shall be my resolution :D so 32's done. im left w 68 to go! hehe..

2006-04-07T01:57:00.000Z

I had a close brush with death last night!

What happened was that I was out cycling at about eight plus to get something from the convenience store, and also to get outta my house to breathe some fresh air after 2 long days at home. While crossing this pedestrian crossing on green man (which was legal for me), two damn cabs turned in towards my direction (which was legal for them too but they should've stopped to let pedestrains cross). And these 2 damn cabs didnt STOP at the place where they were supposed to stop at, and I nearly got BANGED down by these 2 cabs when they stopped less than half a metre away from me. Of course my balls shrunk and nearly dropped to put it crudely, but theres no instant flashback of my life, as what people say you will experience at a point close to death. Haha.

I've spent 3 days at home, just like that. I'm pretty amazed at my ability to stay home for that long a time without complaining that I'm bored. Guess its what I do everyday, which is to wake up to lunch, take a nap at 4 plus, wake up to dinner, and watch tv till 11. After which I'll msn till 1-2 am in the morning, and the whole cycle continues. No choice as I'm waiting for 17th April to come, so that I can start working at the Science Centre for two weeks. Damn. And after that two weeks? I have to start hunting for another job. But this time a longer one at that. Maybe a month or so of commitment.

bAaaa..

2006-04-04T08:24:00.000Z

陈伟联 - 触摸

听说南方从来不会有寂寞
听说在海边世界没有尽头
你哭覂告诉我
你和他梦想的种种
我会是你雨天的湖泊
拥抱你的温柔

好想看你的笑容
对离开的他说
你心中那份美丽
怎么找都不会再有

轻轻触摸未来遥远的风
有一天你会找回你的梦
幸福是看得透而不是
舍不得他的所有

慢慢触摸天空暖暖的火
我在这天黑了也不会走
你的快乐除了他
还有我永远守候
不要难过

听说冬天叶子熟了会脸红
听说在天空有迷人的星座
一起去探险吧
也许你会喜欢而感动
你沉默的时候
我知道你的心还很痛

真想看你的笑容
对你的他大声说
你心中那份美丽
怎么找都不会再有

轻轻触摸未来遥远的风
有一天你会找回你的梦
幸福是看得透而不是
舍不得他的所有

慢慢触摸天空暖暖的火
我在这天黑了也不会走
你的快乐除了他
还有我永远守候
不要难过

2006-04-02T16:44:00.000Z

Is there any song in particular that anyone of you people out there love it so much that you can listen to it a few hundred times and not feel sick about it?

I found a song which fits that description exactly, and I'm not in the least tired of that song. Not coz of its melody or singer, but more of the meaning behind it. The song is 触摸 by kelvin, the winner of e superstar.

Theres a particular sentence in the lyrics which I'm trying very hard to learn and comprehend, and hopefully understand and apply it. It goes like this:

幸福是看得透，而不是舍不得他的所有。

Now you know why I love this song.

A sentence that have a seemingly easy to understand meaning, yet complex enough to be applied. I'm really trying now to put that into action, and maybe thats when 幸福 really comes in. Till then, this will remain as one of my favourite songs.

2006-03-24T08:23:00.000Z

if i dont blog and rant about this, i think i'll be doing my diploma and e medtech a super big injustice. haha. why? read on to find out.

So today's e big day, the medical checkup day at cmpb. wasnt in e least excited about it, but its one phase that all sg guys have to go thru. so no choice. dont tok so much crap, go straight into e process.

first stop at e checkup was clinical lab. so was told to do urine dipstick test. ok fine. usual. done it dono how mani times. shouldnt be hard. the first horror came. finsihed peeing onto e strip, have to show to e person there in charge. show e strip that is. anyone of us will noe that we have to compare e colors to the reference printed on the bottle of dipsticks.. or if high tech abit, use a machine to read the results to test for glucosuria proteinuria etc etc. and guess wat? show to the person, the person eyeball it from a metre away for less than a SECOND, and said OKAY, and i passed e urine test. no protein, no glucose. i think they're gods, can eyeball 5 results at one go and know whats normal and whats not, all under 1second. 'pro' rite? of coz, after that was finger poking, and mAN! the poking was HORRIBLE, even though im already supposed to be numb towards finger pricking and venipuncture. finger pricks first, i got pricked twice, once on my index finger, once on my middle finger, right SMACK in the MIDDLE, and my fingers are feeling sore now while typing all these. they wan to silence people i tink, make their fingers sore so that they cant blog. haha. and yea, no alcohol swab before that k. so much for safety. n e way e used blood was handle totally turned me off. they just poured it into one big container. oh ya. i saw them using the same rubber bung to cap e tubes to mix the blood with saline of different samples, i suppose its for blood grouping.. CONTAMINATION!! omg. SUPER cross contamination can. and ya, venipuncture, don tok abt it lah..it was painful alrite. for once i miss yenyen, and her venipuncture. haha.. too used to her venipuncture liao. the bestest best part of all is that they mixed my sample up w another guy, and i was alert enuf to notice it. else my name now is 'mohd dono wat dono wat'. imagine e consequence of sample mixup? i dont think they noe. unprofessionalism, totally.

nxt was e audio thingy, nthing much to comment, coz i have no idea what they're doing

then came the eye thingy, nthing much to comment too.

den dental!! omg. u noe e mirror dentists use to check ur teeth, i saw a bunch of em in e metal container of the dentist, and he just took any one of em and stuck it in my mouth to check my teeth, and after that, dump it back into e same container. e sight is just HORRIFYING. i dont even want to think about how mani people's mouth have that thingy went into before going into my mouth without sterilising or even decontaminating. hais.

den was ecg, height and weight, bla bla, and balls checking. nthing much to say oso. coz i was already damn tired by then. nv notice anything out of e norm. did e comp test, dono wat aptitude test. damn was it hard man. my brains totally FRIED. kow. simple maths, patterns, iq qns. do until u wan to cry. haha!

e whole thing lasted for 6 hrs. i think theres more that i nid to comment. but im super tired n high now.. going to slp le. as u can see im not writing coherently. too mani ideas, too little time. haha. =x

and ya..if u want to noe more, pmsg me, and i'll rant to u e whole nite about how 'pro' they are. =) and im not afriad coz wat im speaking was the truth =)

2006-03-23T05:01:00.000Z

its damn hurting to know that if someone is in times of distress, and yet nothing you say or do can help; or rather anything that you say or do aggravates e situation more.

it hurts that way, and more when you know that you used to be able to put a smile back onto that person's face, but no longer anymore these days.

2006-03-22T00:35:00.000Z

as i am typing this stupid post.. my tummy is aching, i need e toilet.. my heart is lupdupping quickly, and e STUPID SAS SYSTEM SERVER IS LAGGING.

damn it.

e gancheongness increases w every second man.

2006-03-19T17:24:00.000Z

~*~MY LOVE - MY VALENTINE~*~

~*~~*~

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you

~*~~*~

If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you

~*~~*~

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
You're all I need
My love.. My valentine

~*~~*~

All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And showed me how to love unselfishly

~*~~*~

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
In my dreams I couldn't love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time
You're all I need
My love.. My valentine

~*~~*~

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
'Cos all I need
Is you.. My valentine

~*~~*~

You're all I need
My love
My Valentine

2006-03-19T16:20:00.000Z

woot! jeremy treated us to sushi tei today! us meaning me and mekko and jeremy himself of course! for wat? i shall not say..

haha..so today went to watch movie again, and this time its big momma's hse two! damn funny.. worth every penny of my 9.50..hehe.. its so tmd lame and cute.. lolx..

i think im getting real desperate for a job..im even considering eateries as one of my choices.. sent an sms to e pinle (some desert shop) for an application..haha.. wonder hows e pay like..

i want a job.. =(

2006-03-18T17:59:00.000Z

ooh lala! my ears are ringing now..coz y? i went to e daiko concert thingy..and at one point of time my ears started to have a ringing sound..haha..n i stuck my fingers into my ears..lolx..

e show was really nice.. hilarious to be exact.. totally worth e $$$ :D:D

so went out for supper after e show.. had it at bedok coz its near my hse! hehehe.. n cheap cheap cab fare home after that.. had sotong stingray and chicken wings!im really gettin fat..been eating too much today..haha..

i know this entry is short..unlike me..haha.. but im v tired.. eyes closing le..

ohya..i went east coast for tanning too! haha..but i tink i turned red instead of black...SIAN! =(

2006-03-17T14:09:00.000Z

today's e last day of e finger pricking sessioN!! n my fingers are sore!! its to e state of being numb after being poked so mani times.. 40 times on my ring finger, and 5 on my 'f-u' finger.. hehehe..

got e money also..so every1 felt rich! even though its 60bucks, but every1 felt rich, and we went to seoul garden for buffet lunch..haha..my first and only meal of the day..dieting eh! yea rite.. so ss sc yy me cl and jy went over, and there was this cool malay like looking chi..n we tot she was malay..until she opened her mouth n speaked chi..we all were O.O.. and she said smthing like 'i noe i look v dark..coz my papa mama forgot to on the lights while giving birth to me'.. totally LAME lOR!!! SO COLD!!.. hahaha..

so we had all e food we could stuff in our tummy.. e coffee chicken is great! new flavour..innovative toO! and had 6 scoops of ice cream! god..mint is forever e best! but too bad some pple said its like brushing teeth..dots! haha..

so after that while every1 was feeling damn full and bloated, we went to walk around bugis to acc yy pass time coz she's meeting her fren at 5+ i think.. so off yy went and so did ss n sc.. so its down to e 3 da nan rens! lolx.wat can 3 guys do in bugis? go shopping! at sim lim sq..hahaha.. we totally became bargain hunters man..e higher we go e cheaper things get.. lolx..n so i bought a dvd cd combo drive for 75buckaroos.. kinda cheap..cl bought one for himself too.. jy biggest winner.. dono how mani things he bought.. haha..

so here i am..typing after i just finished installing e drive..its my first time doodling w computer parts man! and theres this sense of achievement when i installed e dvd drive and it worked! i tot its not gonna work and give me a big headache..haha..but it did!:D:D:D i noe i noe..its just a drive.. yawn..

yea.. sb is sick.. take care ya! :) rest well and get well sooN!:D

2006-03-15T11:35:00.000Z

Choice or Chance

When we meet the right person to love,
when we're at the right place at the right time,
that's a chance.

When you meet someone you're attracted to,
that's not a choice.
That's a chance.

Being caught up in a moment
(and there are a lot of couples who get together because of this)
is not a choice.
That's also a chance.

The difference is what happens afterwards.
When will you take that infatuation, that crush,
that mind-blowing attraction to the next level?
That's when all sanity goes back,
you sit down and contemplate
whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship
or just a fling.

If you decide to love a person,
even with his/her faults,
that's not a chance.
That's a choice.

When you choose to be with a person,
no matter what,
that's a choice.

Even if you know there are many people out there
who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate,
and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same,
that's a choice.

Infatuation, crushes, and attraction come to us by chance.
But true love that lasts is truly a choice.
A choice that we make.

Regarding soulmates,
there's a beautiful movie quote that is so true about this:
"Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen."

I believe that soulmates do exist,
that there is truly someone made for you.
But it's still up to you to make the choice
if you're going to do something about it or not.

We may meet our soulmates by chance,
but loving and staying with our soulmate
is still a choice we have to make.

We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love,
BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly.

"choice or chance"

2006-03-13T07:23:00.000Z

im back!! from rotting. haha

life's nv been better man! doing nothing everyday, waking up late and doing nothing e whole day..nothing beats life like this..

oh well..i FINALLY received my medical checkup order.. so havta go for med checkup on 24th march at 9bloody am.. how to wake up so early? sure gong gong go checkup..got poked in e butt oso wont noe.. n e best thing is that they said they'll put me into e nxt earliest enlistment date..cool or wat? if all goes well i'll be botak by apriL! to think of it i might be e last to go for medical yet e first to enlist. hahaha.. and when i pop from bmt, e rest would still be in there! :D:D

finger poking sessions 3 down 2 more to go..might nid to repeat some..but who noes? maybe maybe not..fingers are almost dead..rotten and pricked down to the last spot..haha..having problems even in typing this post.. :D:D

i applied for mani mani jobs already..yet didnt seem to have any reply..yawns..must be their system lousy!!! life's such a mess now..no goals no nothing.. oh well.. i think i'll update again nxt time.. coz theres really nothing much in my life worth blogging about.. till something interesting happens ya..

had mani talks e previous few nites.. hopes or not, arent that important anymore.. things will nv be e same again i guess.. e talks werent meant to end that way last nite, but it did. kinda upset over it.. and didnt get to have a peaceful slp.. coz no matter how tired i was, i didnt and cant get to slp.. till this morning and went school like a zombified person..ya..

till then..

2006-03-02T09:14:00.000Z

unofficially graduated..2days ago..! :D:D

i noe its late of me to blog abt this now..coz i kept procrastinating since e nite we grad..

the immuno paper was >.<>.<>.< coz all those that we spotted none came out! holy cow rite? nothing on hypersensitivity..damn!n i tot i was going to be the god of POH =x flipped open e paper n i went omg. die. dono how to do. but ok lah..still kinda breezed thru e paper.. alot on lesson memories.. luckily i listen in class! haha! thats e gd thing abt paying attentioN!

so while i was writing up my last few sentences in e last few minutes of the last paper, the feeling set in! e graduating feeling suddenly so SHUANG. overwhelming i tell u..haha..i was literally smiling to myself as i was doing the paper and finishing up the paper..wahahaa..

so after e paper, sc sq yy jy cl and me went over to orchard to kinda celebrate lo..haha..since its e last paper..can fang dan qu wan. went to cartel for dinner, but had to swallow e food down within 15minutes coz e show that we were about to watch was starting in 15minutes time. missed e first part of the show, but still ok lah..fd3 we watched..kinda gross at some parts, but it was cooL! n to think i didnt watch fd1 and 2.. and so after that we went to balcony for a drink..nice ambience etc, and they had this nice rocking chair..makes u really wan to sit down n watch e world walk past orchard..lol..sat there for about an hr, and we began to 'now whr? go whr? do wat?'

wanted to k, but its kinda ex lah..22buckaroos per person..haha..so in e end bummed around at e2max and i think yy suggested going over to newton circus to have supper! cooL! haha..been oni there once, and it's relocated liao..had satay and sugarcane juice, i nearly got sugarcane intoxicated. sc cant finish her drink and poured almost half of her drink to me >.< bloated all e way till i got home, and after i pee-ed it out, i felt hungry again. haha..

anyway, after newton circus we went home, and e rest took e train coz they still had e last train, while mine n sq's left just as we were approaching the station..how heng rite..and we walked to e nearest bus stop to take 67 hoping theres a last bus, n wala! none..sian bo. in e end took cab to my place n i drove her home, coz it'll cost her a bomb to take all e way to her hse. haha..driving is FREE :D

yesterday's e first day of e holidays, and boy, e day started with a BLAST. i woke up w a D+ (some of u will noe wats tt). and i met cl at cmpb to settle some stuff before we went over to hsa to donate blood! haha..as usual cl is always the first to go in and e last to come out. haha..n e nurse said he had small veins? n e hilarious part was that e nurse said he didnt exercise, so he had small veins..wahahaha! felt abit giddy on e train ride home after that, think its coz of my dehydration haha..(clinchem) =x didnt had anything to drink until e donation..which i downed one bottle of cranberry juice before donating..not enuf to up my ecf vol..woops =x

felt better after sitting down, went home, and NUA! slp slp slp slp slp! pig's life lah.. haha..shiok rite.. and thats e same for today! pigged out totally and did nothing but movies! heh.. will be working in mid april parttime for some lab, thx to md :D:D my saviour! else i'll really be rotting and nua-ing for few mths..haha! :D:D

2006-02-26T17:32:00.000Z

tick tick tick tick tick..

the clock's ticking away.. countdown to the last paper.. barely 40hours left till it ends.. :)

and damn! im short of 2 cca points to being an A w merit..DAMN.!

anyways, today studied in sch for a while, kinda non productive since its just revision and recapping and seeing how much i can memorise.. but i think im pretty well prepared for immuno...just hope that i don gabra e immunosuppressive drugs :D

2006-02-24T11:27:00.000Z

hohoho! ice cream on the 28th anyone? celebration!! :D :D

2006-02-20T14:56:00.000Z

As the saying goes, time will heal all wounds.

But there goes another saying: but scars remain forever.

2006-02-18T15:38:00.000Z

You entered: 12/14/1985

Your date of conception was on or about 23 March 1985 which was a Saturday.

You were born on a Saturday
under the astrological sign Sagittarius.
Your Life path number is 4.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2446413.5.
The golden number for 1985 is 10.
The epact number for 1985 is 8.
The year 1985 was not a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/20/1985 and ending 2/8/1986.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Ox.

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 7 April 1985.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 20 February 1985.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 26 May 1985.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 2 June 1985.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Monday, 16 September 1985.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Saturday, 6 April 1985.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 19 February 1985.

As of 2/18/2006 10:38:09 AM EST
You are 20 years old.
You are 242 months old.
You are 1,053 weeks old.
You are 7,371 days old.
You are 176,914 hours old.
You are 10,614,878 minutes old.
You are 636,892,689 seconds old.

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 2.88493150684931 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

There are 299 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 21 candles.

Those 21 candles produce 21 BTUs,
or 5,292 calories of heat (that's only 5.2920 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.40 US ounces of water with that many candles.

In 1985 there were approximately 3.7 million births in the US.
In 1985 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1985 in the US there were 2,425,000 marriages (10.2%) and 1,187,000 divorces (5%)
In 1985 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

Your birthstone is Blue Zircon
The Mystical properties of Blue Zircon

Zircon helps one be more at peace with oneself.

Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Blue Topaz, Ruby, Lapis Lazuli

Your birth tree is

Fig Tree, the Sensibility
Very strong, a bit self-willed, independent, does not allow contradiction or arguments, loves life, its family, children and animals, a bit of a butterfly, good sense of humour, likes idleness and laziness, of practical talent and intelligence.

There are 310 days till Christmas 2006!
There are 323 days till Orthodox Christmas!

The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waxing crescent.

random thought

2006-02-17T15:18:00.000Z

Anyone ever had this feeling, that out of the blue, in the middle of whatever you were doing, u just felt that u kinda missed someone, or somethings, and when in actual fact that someone or thing is just somewhere around you?

This afternoon was real bad. Went to school to study, but got a group of buggers who went talking and talking non stop, which made my thoughts really drift away. I wanted to study, and I forced it into me, but of course to no avail. The thought just drifted and drifted further, and somehow, I missed the past. Come to think of it, its already 20 weeks, safe to say 5months. But somethings are yet to be put down, and some people, yet to move on. I was damn sick and tired of sitting down with my thoughts drifting, so might as well walk around. Went to many places, walked up and down the library, the corners, the foodcourts, the co-op shop etc. Places that could possibly let me relive my memories. Felt tired, and made my way back to the library. But I felt kinda sick to go back and let my thoughts drift, so i sat ouside the door on the stairs, reading messages which i've stubbornly kept which were dated almost 6months old. The msges were protected, and whenever i accidentally delete the msg, i'll pull the battery off, in hope that the msg would not be deleted. So far, i've lost one msg, which to me is tantamount to losing one part of my memory.

Sometimes I wonder, are my false hopes based on all these mundane msges that i've kept in my phone? Some msges which i've kept to give myself some hope in times of desperation, some force of motivation that 'yes. things will turn out fine and better.' I've kept to that belief for the past 20weeks, the same old belief which managed to keep me going, that there'll be a day whereby things will turn out well, and that the wait will be worthwhile and not futile as many have told me.

I know someone will say that I'm living in self denial. I admit that i am. But i can't afford to lose this hope, and this minute ray of light at the end of the tunnel. If i lose this hope now, i really do think that my world would collapse upon me. Why can't things just maintain in their state that were used to be, was the question that i've asked myself since then. The most rational answer is that people change, and things do as well. But to me, i guess its that yes people and things change, but i don't. Im always living as a reference point, total displacement of zero if you measure it in physical terms. I don't like to get out of my comfort zone, and i do love things to stay the way they are.

At first, i didnt know why i was feeling so down suddenly today. Until someone shed some light, and suggested that i missed someone suddenly very much. I totally agree with that, but i guess that it was just in that moment, that the thought came in.

I've tried, and i really did. But i failed everytime i made up my mind and be determined to do what i ought to do. I can control my brain and what i think during the day, but i'm sorry that i'm not able to do so in the night. I can't.

2006-02-16T13:30:00.000Z

today's THE DAY man! fyp nerve wrecking experience. since every1 blogged about it, i shall blog abit on it too before i move my chair n chairshaped ass to e desk to study for my immuno :D:D

fyp presentation was totall nerve wrecking.. all e lecturers u noe in medtech sitting in front of u listening..some writing furiously to aim u w lotsa headshots to K u..e presentation was alrite, but thought i couldve done better n slower in talking..haha.. then came e qna..GOD!! stunned stunned and more stuns. multiple headshots..but managed to smoke some i guess..haha..

pharm test! BUANG.. K-O. super applied. sian ji bua. dono how to buang this test..dono buang left right or centre..top or down. went lib to tank after that for immuno..2hrs i finished immunization..which was pretty slow i tink..haha..considering its oni 32 slides..took my own sweet time happily tanking..and came some pleasant surprises, and i left sch :D:D

k..guess i better go study now..else im so dead for immuno..coz i'm only done w ONE mini topic..just to make myself feel better..tonite have to finish up autoimmunity :D:D target for e nite! PoOF!

张惠妹 - 真实

2006-02-07T17:48:00.000Z

你说的话在我心中生了根
爱得很深所以心很疼
记忆在我的心中翻滚
是不是每一个人
都像我一样笨
只怕再问对彼此都太残忍
我能感觉另外一个人
我等等笑容换成泪痕
爱在崩溃的时候比较真
太多疑问知道答案又如何
原来容忍不需要天份
只要爱错一个人
心痛比快乐更真实
爱为何这样的讽刺
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持
孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
放不开也看不见未来
难道这种不完美
才是爱情真实的样子

2006-02-07T13:07:00.000Z

hahaha! im back!!u must've tot my blog was gone eh! hahaha.. but its back!! :D:D:D

ohwell.. been a long time since i updated yea! hahaha..i think chao chao oso 3 weeks i tink.. alright..lets talk abit abt e tests since im e nerd! yeayeayayayea!

so got back e clinchem test already..which was v long ago la..but i must still rant..haha..coz i got highest! hahaha!haolian haolian~~ :D:D::D and so came e.. omfg..i forgot..i think e nxt test that came was e parasite quiz..ohwell..every1 was studying for it like some exam..can give up lunch just for studying..haha..but well..i was also one of em lah..muggin in the library..so e result? haha..i tink every1 buang! including me..5marks per morphology.hahaa..no joke man..everything looks e same to me la can..its soo.... SIMILAR.. ohya before tt e wed had a parasite prac..identify parasite..and guess wat..i didnt even get to spot a cyst or ova..haha..pro rite..3hrs of microscope staring..n i see NOTHING.. e life of a parasitologist is sure dang boring i guess.. machiam finding a piece of gold in a sea of shIt..haha =x=x

today's e lmbs quiz of course..and its damn unfair lar..i duwan to elaborate but e medtech pple shld noe how unfair it was..shen de i later kena from god noes who again..fyp at stake..aha..must keep my foul mouth to myself..i shall rant on it when everything's over..and i forgot my calculator today la..how interesting rite..cant believe i forgot to bring e most impt piece of item for e test..in e end become gancheong spider mass smsing pple to borrow calculator..yes thats how sad i was..and thanks to GERALDINE tt i got a calculator..thx alot!:D::D

had csw interview today as well..was damn nervous can..my heart tachycardia..i nid some propanolol..haha.. its really.. nerve wrecking..but she said i did well! v well in fact? hahaha..hope so lah.. :D was a great experience but definitely a very nerve wrecking one at that..but thats one module down!isnt it fantastic! hahaha..csw is over! :D::DD

just to digress i realise i love to use :D:D:D alot at e end of my sentences..haha..dono y too..

tml's wed! and its e kinda like cls farewell party? lol..how interesting rite..its held at e plaza..and its going to be a photo galore..lOLx..every1 will be armed w their digicams and start snapping snapping away..maybe e last time tt we get together as a class i guess..after that exams and POOF off we go..haha.. okie la..its a long enuf entry i tink.. compensated for e lack of entries le.. :D:D ciaos! till nxt time :D

2006-01-17T17:56:00.000Z

hehe. i know i know. been sucha long time sincei did update rite? some pple gonna call me pig for that already..

ohwells, lets begin from fri e 13th! basically nothing much that was bad happened, coz e day seemed v smooth flowing. had class outing at marche, and ordered smoked salmon crepes. alrite lah, not as fantastic that i thought would be, shared it w jy's rosti. gera: is ROSTI not ROSTEE. HAHA! (my toes are laughing for that) see lah, wan to correct my eng. hehe. =x=x so was pretty fun, thought we had to topup e final bill coz ssoh gave us 200buckaroos, but in e end we had balance cash which went into the class fund ^^ was ss's bday that day too, and we chipped in abit to buy her a jigsaw puzzle and an esprit t shirt i think, yen got it for her :X i oni responsible for money, so were e rest of e guys. haha. did a mini celebration with her at marche too w a slice of cake, which seemed really pathetic though, but cute. haha..1 small candle on top of e small slice of cake :D

after that went to kbox at cine, till abt 9+ w malvina,yc,ch,jy,cl,ss,yy,sq and mi! big crowd rite! haha..normally oni 4/5 pple nia..lolx..its e last time we can play n enjoy coz there's no more weeks w/o quizzes n tests :S smbody was pretty happy that we went ktv, and i shall not say who haha! =x=x secret :D:D i will ZIP! =X poor ss had to sing 'zhu wo sheng ri kuai le' to herself on her bday, haha..kinda corny too. supposed to be a sad song, but we made it out to be a happy bday song. haha.

so days passed, and its e 18th today? i guess. haha. theres csw test today, which was kinda screwed coz i think i did dang badly for e email part. bet theres no flow of ideas and etc etc.. i bet e teachers gonna laugh off her toes for my sucky english and crappy ideas. haha. ohwell, see how things go ya. got a new csw teacher today, an indian, dono her name though..lolx..seems kinda nice, but u'll nv noe till e last moment :D theres immuno test tml, and i kinda just finished studying for it. wait, wat tml..its TODAY!!in barely 8 hours time, i'll be sweating and furiously writing on e immuno script.lOlx. its already 2am and i still cant get to slp. partly coz im kinda hungry now w my tummy growling, and mainly coz i drank a BIG cuppa coffee w 4tsp of coffee powder which was kinda too potent :S but i just yawned once! so slping shldnt be hard ya! :D:D

graduation real real real soon, and i shudder at the thought of it. its kinda like, good and bad news. good coz its soon e end of my dip studies, and i can get e hell outta sp, not as if i hate or detest sp, i kinda love it coz its my choice sch w my choice course, but u noe, who would wanna stay in a sch for too long ya? u get my drift? ok if u dont. haha! bad coz im so gonna miss e people in school, e crapping and e lame jokes, e looking at ACs and GLFs and what have u not and disiaoing n making fun of pple etc. too mani things to list down. many pple kinda decided on their path after poly graduation, but im still pretty much undecided, fickle minded u may say. im still undecided on the place i wanna study, aust or uk or maybe even scotland? haha.. money money money.. ohwells. if anyone knows of a 1yr direct honors course in aust pls do tell me, haha..coz it'll be e most ideal situation. if not i'll start hunting for a 1yr direct honors course in the uk, and i think i'll spend my entire fortune on e education + living expenses. i see myself as a poor bloke asian in the uk soon. lolx. no more entertainment for a year, no movies, no shopping, just plain pure fugging mugging. haha. total 101% nerd in a foreign land. but it'll be a great experience, wouldnt it? :D:D

alright, i think i typed alot today in this entry. haha.. let me go to bed n dream of immuno qns that may be asked tml. let me be e 'POH SHEN', e god of spotting qns. LOlx =x nites every1. immuno makes u high, and im high on immuno now :S

2006-01-08T08:12:00.000Z

some interesting things ifound while surfing the net =)

http://health.msn.com/menshealth/articlepage.aspx?cp-documentid=100119940

2006-01-06T08:41:00.000Z

i AM BACK!!! haha!

hows everyone? coz im great! why? coz fyp rpt was submitted! a super duper HUGE load off my back, and one item off my list of things to do~ :D:D:D ohwell, its a happy day :D

i think i haven been bloggin v regularly, coz have been duper busy w fyp rpt n stuff, coz we wanted to finsih it ASAP!! and asap we did! hahaha..we printed e whole report in e viro lab though, but e printer kinda sux.. took us like 30+ mins to figure out how to make it print e way we want it to be..its a NAUGHTY printer ^^ and jy freeloaded off e printer!wahaha! i didnt say tt :D

ok.i did freeload too. but oni ONE set of notes ma..hehehe.. e gals wanted to print in there today also..and guess wat! e toner was GONE! WALA!!! anti-freeloading tactics..LoLx..removing e damn toner..pRo liao lAh! =x=x bet jy's free loading was discovered ytd..LOLx =x

anyway, yeo stunned us today, saynig we nid to kindal ike present for our micro assignments..caught completely offguard -_- haha..and put us in a spot say wat 'imagine theres a power failure now, and u nid to continue talking n presenting..' wat?!! hahaha.. ok lah..i did e ppt, but i didnt like prepare for it..so i kinda forgot e impt things..lolx..so as usual..smoke grenades fully loadedd and thrown :D:D:D

one rpt done, many more to come..haha..life's a vicious cycle..u nv get to relax :~

2005-12-31T19:38:00.000Z

i want:

a pair of asics shoes
one more levis jeans
a couple more of t shirts
a couple more of shirts

^^

time to start cny shopping n spend money!

anyway, its e new yr..no resolutions as usual :) coz i nv keep them..no point making resolutions..haha.. ok la..one usual resolution, to lose weight.haha..been so fat.buffeting everyday.:( :( what a pig's life :S

2005-12-28T17:55:00.000Z

haha! news news!!

i told GERALINDE im play chess w zhougong everynite.. n this is e reply

a t a r a x i a says:
how come ur grandpa so energetic one

haha! =x=x

and.. when she finally noes who's zhougong,

a t a r a x i a says:
luckie now onlie u noe i donno zhou gong

not anymore! hehehe=x

2005-12-28T17:07:00.000Z

woots!!its more than one week sincei 've blogged..and it felt like yesterday~~ haha..

got pple complaining tt my blog is rusty/cobwebby/spiderwebby watever..haha.. ohwells..

e holidays are ending real soon! n i've left w a couple of tasks left on my todo list..mainly e reports..esp csw..ive been procrastinating since dono how long..lol..since last wed i think.. its getting on my nerves la..think will finish it up tml..kinda an eyesore to me.. fyp report is done also..but not finalised yet..bet there's lotsa editting and last min work on tues before submission..i can PREDICT it..haha..

theres csw makeup on tues morning..8AM!!damn it..so tmd early can..take away my 1pm day again..tmd..2 csws in 1 day..4hrs of that shit..its -_- lah..lolx.. im just anti-LC modules..unless e teacher's really nice like rwp..lolx.. sweet young teacher..OOPS =x

life's pretty gd now..i haven stepped outta hse properly for sucha long time..no movies etc etc..i nid to spend MONEY seriously..haha..cooped up at home dont do me any good..to think i can get flu even while im stuck at home..its lame can..-_- got some super flu bug lurking arnd in my hse..:S

new yrs coming..hope i'll be free by then.. completed w my stuff n enjoying whats remaining of my holidays..heh..life will then be so beautiful.. anyway did some color test thingy on tickle.com..sc asked me to do it..well..color was green..what does it means? go find out urself!haha..in short im a down to earth person, n rare as emeralds = wonderful person..LOL! can u believe it? coz ido! =x=x=x

2005-12-20T05:46:00.000Z

yoOo!!

watched king kong last nite with the guys n gals of my class at cineleisure..pretty nice show even though e show had a classic ending..kk on top of empire state building n falling off it..was pretty funny at some parts and touching at others..but it had a boring beginning though..not as action packed and exciting as e last few parts.. overall it was a great movie!worth e watch :D

so had nydc dinner over at heeren..as usual had e baked rice which was so super! but was super cheesy..so had deserts after that..and when we asked for e menu again..e waiter gave us e woo look..LOL =x had jedi mudster and mango cheese cake!! SUPER =x but fat haha..feisiren.

went over to window shop at heeren after that..since all of us were like damn full and dying..nid to walk off the excess calories..wahaha..as if walking does helps.. walked maybe for about an hour, before we went over to rouge outdoor for a drink and started crapping..lolx.. there's this waitress over at the place, which junyi was super gian over, but ohwell, he tot she's pretty..lOlx =x can see his face written gian all over during e stay at the place..lOlx..

k la..enuf of short breaks le..time to go back on my hol assignments..haha..damn..its never ending.. lOlx..

2005-12-17T09:57:00.000Z

hey!!

its my bday week for e past week! thx to all those who sms-ed me, wish-ed me, gave me presents etc etc =D THANKS! =D

its the holidays finally, that means to say theres only 1 term left before we graduate! tink abt it kinda sad lah..3 yrs in sp litat jiu over le.. kinda fast lor.. lolx..

anyways..today we had e cls funfair thingy..sold choc fondue with marshmallows, bananas and apples..e melted choco is DAMN nice!!n we earned abt 150 buckaroos..with e capital to be less den 60bucks..haha.. a 100% profit! we make gd entrepreneurs =x *yea rite* but it was good fun anyways! crapped alot, sweat alot, looked at piao liang mei meis alot.. =D =D =D thats e whole point of everything isnt it? :D

did abit of fyp today too..done up half of e elisa.. and i did my plasma to test for anti-CMV antibodies..and guess what! im seronegative! that means i've not been infected before!! see! we work damn safely can..we observe BIOSAFETY! even though we've worked w cmv on benchtops and wat so ever, im still uninfected!!! :D:D:D

ok..crapped too mcuh..on chocolate high now..betta go do some work before e high gets over..heh.. :D

2005-12-06T14:20:00.000Z

hey~~!!

ok..its been a dang long time..i noe i noe..u guys missed me heaps rite? :D

been v busy for the past week, mainly with immuno n clinchem datasheets of course..and some other la zha things.. managed to finish up everything on time n properly.. :D n to learn that we actually have another week to finish up our immuno datasheets..ARGHi've gotten my eye bags for NOTHING!!*!@*&%#&*@!

ok..this 2 weeks are going to be damn busy as well.. fyp report -undone. heard people have been submitting their x-th drafts to their supervisors liao..n we're still STUCK!!at benchwork smmore..haha..GG liao larh..

immuno test this week.. rather this fri..just finished one small topic on ag presentation..head BIG liao..its suppposed to be one of e smallest topics..haha.. nxt tues clin chem, nxt thurs biosafety again..its HORRIBLE!! n my bday falls in between these 2 days..how FUN!! =x i'll be home mugging again..SIAN :S

hmm..k lor..i tink i crapped enuf le.. im going to k books again..will update soon when i get the time :D

2005-11-25T18:34:00.000Z

what is it when someone hopelessly clings onto a hope that may never come true? or rather cling onto something else but hope? is it termed as stupidity, or is it known as persistence?

emotional rollercoaster for the past few weeks, had its ups, had its downs. good times never last, for what goes up, has to come down at the end of it all. making your way to the top is what we've been trying to do all along, and when u reached the top, you feel like a king. u feel as if you conquered the world.

but.

there's one thing that many forget. what goes up has to come down. most of us cant take the coming down, down to a point lower than the point you started off from. i'm one of those people.

with that, lets have some song lyrics. pretty meaningful, right words and stuff. enjoy.

歌曲：太爱你了
歌手：张善为专辑：六个月后…那年夏天

我记得去年的秋天
我们相遇了
你用温柔征服了我的冷漠
你带着微笑对我轻轻说hello
也给我一生中最美的轻柔
在今年寒冷的冬天
你说要离开我
我真的还想不通为什么
你说的就是难好正粘这男人
你需要进我的心路里程
我的伤痛你不会懂...
把我的真心还给我
我带着微笑就赋你快乐
谁知道我心有多痛
我的快乐你全部带走
把成全你爱留给我
希望你能够我会这样走
是太爱你了永远爱你的
太爱你了

2005-11-25T17:42:00.000Z

the world crashed upon me, the 2nd major one in this period..

i've learnt the truth, but the truth is always never close to the one that i'd always wanted it to be..

2005-11-20T14:41:00.000Z

had an urge to blog, so here i am.

had this question in my head since last night, do you guys think of 'im not gd enuf to be together w him/her' as a reason/excuse for a breakup between a couple?

personally, i feel that its a dumb/useless/lame excuse or a reason for a breakup. and i do have my reasons for that. i think that its a reason or excused that has been used so repetitively that it has already lost its true meaning, to the extent that it is being used as commonly as 'i love you'.

to be able to be together, the term 'equality' has never been existent. you don't expect equal reciprocation of your love to the other party. someone has to give that little more, someone on the other hand, has to take that little more or less. so if one takes the amount he/she gives as a measure of how good or nice he/she is, i think it is not exactly the best representation.

of course, the guy in most cases, would want to shower the girl he is toegether with with loads and lots of love. he'll be willing to do anything outta e way just to please the girl, or make them happy. it might be true for the other way round too, but i've seen far too little cases that go this way. the guy will be damn bloody nice to the girl, be at her beck and call, and for some even put down their pride and ego to do something for their girls. yet, if they don't do such things, they may jolly well be accused of not loving the girl enough, and that he's not willing to do things for her.

so yea, the guys go on happily doing the things that think will make their gfs happy. but in the end, they're really putting themselves at a damn disadvantage. why? coz in the end, the guy will give the girl an extra reason for a breakup, that is the girl feels that the guy is too good for him, and that there is someone out there better for the guy, more suited for him.

i don't know if i'll get shot for saying this, but i think its an excuse most girls give in their breakups to make them seem more 'noble', that they're letting the better girls out there get a good guy. it might probably to an extent make them feel better about the breakup, and not put the fault totally on their shoulders.

haha. i dont know if anyone will understand what i just blogged, or what i've just said. pretty incoherent now, coz i nid to take a shit urgently n im rushing this entry thru. but its just my 2 cents worth about such a breakup excuse, with no particular people in mind ya.

2005-11-18T16:58:00.000Z

hey~~long time long time no update eh~~ :D:D

long week it was i shall say.. long days, long lessons, and friday is the only day i look forward to since monday..haha..

k la..shouldnt crap so much abt wad i did.. hmm..i'll jus tok abt today den..

finished lessons at 3..n i made my way down to somerset cineleisure to get tics for harry, but yet e timing kinda sucked..n i saw sandy there..chatted a while..didnt buy tics, and left for lido thinking that there'll sure gonna be better timings and seats at lido..walked a whole 30mins there sweating like a swine, and saw that almost all e time slots were sold out..UNBELIEVABLE. -.- n i have yet to get e tics! so i called sandy and got her to help me buy e tics, while i took e train happily back to somerset to go to cine AGAIN..so met up w sandy to collect e tics from her while i paied her..talked a while more, and i went to yoshinoya to rest my legs which were falling off then..waited for nut and ks, and did nothing much during e long long wait to e start of e movie which was like 9.20pm..played pool, had dinner, shopped arnd..n my legs nearly fell off..

so watched harry, its not that bad as some other pple have put it to be, maybe coz im not an avid reader of e potter books, but well, good enuf to make me contented..haha..im easily contented ya..so took a cab home, and dis is when e horror begins!! i nearly didnt make it to type this entry k.. :(

e cab driver is an uncle in his 40s to 50s, and his driving is TERRIBLE!!!
i can safely say that my driving is so much better than his, even though i am considered as a reckless driver..
e uncle for one takes a damn long time to change lanes, and when he does, i hope that i wont die on e spot, why? coz he stares into e wing mirrors to check for cars, STARE mind u, and not minding e traffic in front, and when he turns to check blindspot, its like looking arnd e blindspot as if he has an xtra pair of eyes which can look out for cars in front of his taxi.. GOD! :(
another thing, his driving is not straight in e lane!!when he kinda drifts out into other car's lanes, he HORNED other cars which were in their own lanes..tian ar..and obviously e other car flashed high beam at him lah.. and he started scolding..BIANGS!!*palm on forehead*
and e classic world class act, he FARTED IN E TAX!I!!!at that pt of time, i was so sure that im gonna either die of a car accident, or die due to any methane gas explosion or asphyxiation..:'(:'( BUEY ZI DONG LEH!! :"(

k lah..tired le..haha..complained enuf le..long enuf enttry to entertain some pple liao..heh.. nites pplE :D

2005-11-10T10:30:00.000Z

heh..how interesting.. i've just realised that this will only be my 96th post on blogspot..heh..

anyways..2nd week of school is great..the usual slacking around, fooling around, lame jokes etc etc.. but work's really piling up.. with assignments and such, which seems to be never ending.. this sem will pass quickly :) and i just have to pia for one last sem and thats it! ^^

hmm.. i think im pretty addicted to jay's new album..especially track6.. heh..its DAMN nice can.. ^^ its like playing on my winamp for the x-th time already :D lotsa meaningful songs w meaningful lyrics around.. u guys can check it out :D

life's been good i suppose, not that depressing anymore as compared to the holidays.. prac stretched over 3pm ytd, but well it was worth it..coz prac was cancelled this morning and we only have to appear in sch by 11 ^^ guess junyi did something really lame when we were doing our cell culture, but i dono what he did outside.. bug him for e pics :D

today's lesson was hmm.. less than alrite.. coz its a freaky 2 hrs of clinical chemistry! and its like so fast..haha..bo pian i guess.. have to adapt to it.. haha..my brain's atrophy-ed..not working as well as it was anymore.. :S

2005-11-05T18:01:00.000Z

215 am now..

bah.. seems like i'm e only person awake now..

hp's quiet, msn's quiet, screen's going to be off, with my mp3 player running..

nice cool nite to get myself engaged in thoughts again..

life nowadays kinda sucked..coz saturdays are becoming my stay home days..which is so unlike me at all in the past.. i wont be home till 3am in the past? ha..but nowadays i barely step outta my house..how interesting life can change.. :S

k lar..i think im blabbering again.. blahs.. :x

2005-11-02T16:00:00.000Z

hannar hannar!! back by popular demand la.. :D haven been blogging for s long meh.. 5 days nia!!! not even 1 week..haha..

anyways..this week is good! even though its e beginning of e sem, but outta 5 days i only hafta go school for 2 days!aint that cool or what? coz ayeo and woo cancelled their lessons and i get to bum arnd today! :D:D

hmm.. life now..pretty ok ok lor.. haha.. no tmm-ing.. no nothing..juust slack e whole day arnd doing nothing.. a rather meaningless life..still have 1 immuno datashEet pending haven do yet..haha..5 per grp.. a lil of a crowd..but many hands make light work :D:D

hmm...well..i just went to play billiard with my sec sch fren who is now a chao recruit.. hmm.. got trashed as usual lah..im not exactly gd at billiards.. okay at pool only..coz e pockets are so much much bigger in pool..heh.. my ass was raped :'(

okie..today i went to watch sky high..a urm..super hero kinda show..haha.. typical story, with typical effects lah.. :D not that bad..but not really worth e 9.5 buckaroos.. went for dinner at fish and co after thats.. was great sitting down and talking cok w friends whom i've not contacted since so long lah.. :D:D

hmm..can le la..tml den blog again if i get e ling gan.. now bored lah..cant think of anything else to write..tada!!

2005-10-28T14:09:00.000Z

nothing much going on this week, bummed around at home for the past god knows how many days. i've been home since tuesday after finishing sc's fyp for the finger pricking. and ever since then, i have yet to spend a cent outside. pretty cool eh?

since i had so much time and nothing to do, all i did was to eat and eat, sleep and sleep. but comes nightfall and i felt pretty guilty on wed after eating that much, so got on my bike, cycled to east coast bedok jetty, and enjoyed the breeze with a beer by my side. pretty cool :D

so that kick started off my night exercising regime. thought that since the night weather is so cooling, and running with a breeze by you might be a very good idea, and so i tried it out on thurs night. pretty cool. sweated hell lots, comparable to a tap being left on. and i felt dang good that nite.

so its friday today, was supposed to bum my ass outta the house to get some money spent, but yet no1 is free. so well. did nothing whole day, cept to eat and sleep. maybe not sleep. went running again as usual. did some statics just like thurs, and it felt damn good even though my body's scattering now.. :)

school's beginning in next week, pretty siong i guess. have to start reading up on stuff even before the school term starts. how interesting rite :S

line between friendship and romance?

2005-10-27T16:15:00.001Z

Will you cross the fine line between friendship and romance?

Many people can, and of course want to, cross this boundary between purely friends and romance. A lucky few are able to trod the fine line being neither here nor there. But how many people are able to take a step back, and go from the side of romance, to the side of purely friendship again?

I've got no doubt many people do want this to be a two way thing, that is you can cross from one side to another, and hopefully from the other back to the original side just as easily. But in actual fact, it is not easy to do so, to cross from the side of romance back to purely friends. Its really a funny thing thats going on. If you stand on the side of friendship and not cross over to the side of romance, you'll lose romance, but yet, it'll be definitely easier to get back what you've lost. But if you stood at the side of romance, there are up and downs for sure, but most probably you'll lose the friendship, and it'll be darn hard to get it back. Not just platonic friendship, but friendship that the both of you once shared before getting together. Its totally impossible I should say, for there would never be two willing parties who've just broke up to be close friends again.

Some people would opt for the stage of companionship. The companionship of getting a listening ear from the other party whenever you needed it, the advice that you need in times when you need it most, and the 'knowing-somebody's-there-for-me-all-the-time' feeling. But if you do so, you lose out on the romance as well, and I can safely say 8 out of 10 of such cases will never get into a relationship.

Oh well. I'm just blabbering after my night run. Things do go wrong with all the endorphins and the adrenaline. You start thinking weirdly.

I do want to cross the boundary, back to being close friends again, just like the way we were before. The jokes, sms-es, messages, chats, late nights, movies, shopping etc. I don't know if I would be able to experience all those again with you anymore or not, but I do want to.

2005-10-26T04:38:00.000Z

seems that im pretty much in touch with my blog now eh.. heh.. been updating quite frequently (given by my standards) :)

fyp's sorta done, but not really..coz its just part 1 of the unknown number of parts to be done on the bench.. so well..see how things go =)

its getting really boring nowadays.. i just cant be bothered to get my butt outta e house and go walk around..and i cant be bothered to do anything..i just wan to lie on my bed and rot myself away.. time passes ever so slowly now.. :S

school's reopening real soon, barely a few days from now..ha..and e hols is over just like that..how time flies..

one of my friend told me something few days back.. about the price of a relationship is friendship..how true it can be.. oh well..

2005-10-23T16:17:00.000Z

i remembered seeing this somewhere, but i really forgotten where. it just sorta struck my mind outta the blue and i've decided to blog it down.

have anyone wondered why do people scream in the middle of an argument, and why do couples whisper to each other sweet nothings instead of saying it loud? and why do you only raise your voices to the people u hold dearest to, and not to any tom dick or harry?

some people say its due to the distance of the hearts of the two individuals being involved.

in an argument, the heart is being v far apart. ideas differ, and viewpoints from each person is different. with the hearts being that far apart, one has to raise their voice to actually allow the other 'heart' to understand and listen, but yet, it seldom happens. by raising your voice, u actually widen the gaps between the 2 hearts, and u'll nv end up going anywhere, coz the other person will never understand or listen to whatever you're trying to put across.

so what about a couple whispering sweet nothings to each other? put in the same theory, coz the hearts of the 2 people are close. u dont need to raise your voice in order to let the other heart hear what you have to say, coz it can hear things even with the slightest whisper. some hearts are that close, that they're able to communicate, without even requiring a sound to be produced. one can easily understand and know what the other is thinking and going to say, coz their hearts are close together, or almost one.

so why do we scream at people who are dearest to us? why do we show our temper and get angry at them? can it be coz u noe that no matter what you've said in the fit of anger or no matter how much u've hurt them, they'll forgive u eventually and forget about it coz they understand you and understand what you're thinking of and going thru? can it really be that way?

coz i do hope that things are that way. that people dearest to you really understand you and will understand what you're thinking and going thru. coz i did lose my temper to someone today, i lost abit of my cool, and im pretty regretful over it. no matter what, if you're reading this, i'm sorry about it this evening. i did lose my cool, and i did showed u attitude. sorry.

2005-10-21T15:16:00.000Z

解开我最神秘的等待
星星坠落风在吹动
终于再将你拥入怀中
两颗心颤抖
相信我不变的真心
千年等待有我承诺
无论经过多少的寒冬
我决不放手

现在紧抓住我的手闭上眼睛
请你回想起过去我们恋爱的日子
我们是因为太爱
所以更使得我们痛苦
我们连"爱你"这句话都无法讲

每一夜被心痛穿越
思念永没有终点
早习惯了孤独相随
我微笑面对
相信我我选择等待
再多苦痛也不闪躲
只有你的温柔能解救
无边的冷漠

现在紧抓住我的手闭上眼睛
请你回想起过去我们恋爱的日子
我们是因为太爱
所以更使得我们痛苦
我们连"爱你"这句话都无法讲

让爱成为你我心中
那永远盛开的花
穿越时空绝不低头永不放弃的梦
我们是因为太爱
所以更使得我们痛苦
我们连"爱你"这句话都无法讲
让爱成为你我心中
那永远盛开的花
我们千万不要忘记我们的约定
唯有真爱追随你我
穿越无尽时空
我们连"爱你"这句话都无法讲

爱是心中唯一不变美丽的神话

2005-10-21T10:51:00.000Z

yoOos.. its been a long time since i've blogged..or was it?

okay..results were out..not that bad =) upped my gpa by a little.. =D

as usual..did fyp for the whole of this week.. good thing that we've finished up with our basic 30 samples and going into another part of the project..which we still have no idea what we're gonna do.. kinda a o.O wait as to ayeo telling us or suggesting wat we're supposed to do..

hmm.. someone showed me one article on a particular chinese magazine during fyp.. and i found it to be pretty meaningful.. might put some things in a different perspective i would say.. the article goes something like that..

breakups are kinda inevitable in a relationship..its more of what happens after the breakup..some become enemies and hate each other's guts..some become platonic friends, some become good friends, and some even become zhi1 ying1 aka a bosom friend.. its how the way we handle it that sorta determines the outcome..

it also speaks about the person whom you've been may not be the ONE in your life, but may be a person that helps to mould u, 'train' you and make you into a better lover for the next person that may come into your life. so if you're in a very sweet and good relationship that sees no end, u should really thank the previous partners of your bf/gf for it is them whom have moulded your partner into the way they are now..

breakups are painful. but it all kinda boils down to a word of 'should'.. say if i like her, we should be together. if we're together, we should get married. and if we're married, we should stay together till the end of time.. its the expectations that people put into relationships and the 'should-have-beens' that makes a breakup that painful.

thats why, the author came up with a blueprint of love.. suggested that everyone has a blueprint of love, waiting to be discovered and unravelled. it gives a plan of how a person's love life to go.. how long will that person take before the ONE is really found. and people who have understood the meaning of this blueprint of love will take breakups better, coz they know that the previous one was just a 'pawn' in this blueprint of love, which was meant to make you into a better lover for your future relationships, and not meant to be with you till the end of time..

so this article to me, was pretty interesting.. coz no1 has toked to me about such an idea before, and i find it pretty meaningful and true.. breakups do make u a better lover, a better giver and taker. and it sorta makes ur future relationships better and sweeter..

well.. so should i just follow this and take it as a blueprint of love, or should i just forget about the whole idea and just be stubborn and keep this idea outta e window? its kinda confusing.. but its ok. people takes time to understand, and so do I :)

its a pretty rough patch again, but i guess things will blow through very soon..maybe when school reopens =)

2005-10-16T05:15:00.000Z

wooohs..

2 weeks into the holidays.. and tml's the 3rd week.. damn its fast.. and i've been going school everyday for e past 2 weeks..almost everyday i mean.. =x

3 more days to release of exam results.. gancheong1!

hmm.. haven been doing anything for the past few days..this is LIFE man.. =D but my life's gonna end in 2 weeks time.. :'(

FYP's going on well..not really on schedule..but heck it =) im left with 8 samples.. so anyone who's reading this.. im truly madly deeply in need of BLOOD!! donate to me!!5mL oni.. it wont hurt alot :D :D

2005-10-15T13:39:00.000Z

背对着背偷偷的流泪
谁都害怕看谁的脸
静静回忆追逐这些年
每一个爱的画面好美
背贴着背沉默中无言
迷恋的你万念俱灰
当我转身想吻你的泪
你却推开安慰

心伤心痛不痛
爱掏空情失控
忘了听你想说什么
少了沟通变苦衷

心伤心痛不痛
爱放纵情放手
忘了问你想要什麽
若给的起我都承受

走到门口我还你自由
泪在闪烁心在颤抖
爱情原来经不起犯错
扛不动回忆太重寂寞太浓

2005-10-11T12:20:00.000Z

I Don't Believe It　是我放弃了你
只为了一个没有理由的决定
以为这次我可以承受你离我而去
不必让你伤心却刺痛自己
一个人走在傍晚七点的台北 City
等著星空就像黑夜一样的来临
I Hate Myself　又整夜追逐梦中的你
而明天只剩哭泣的心
怎么才能让我告诉你　我不愿意
教彼此都在孤独里忍住伤心
我又怎么告诉你　我还爱你
是我自己错误的决定
我要告诉你　我不愿意

2005-10-09T10:54:00.000Z

this song.. the one playing right now..

it speaks everything that i want to say, everything that i'm thinking of right now, and everything that i am going through..

2005-10-09T10:53:00.000Z

please shoot me with a gun. right into the temple please.

2005-10-09T10:46:00.000Z

who would have thought what would haven happened one month later.. maybe 2 weeks.. or even 1? what could possibly happen? its going to be good..

that was what i thought to myself nearly 1month ago..

its barely 10days into the breakup.. im still not taking it very well..

i'm already tired.. tired of being fine.. being okay so that no one will feel guilty or bad over anything.. but yet, so what if i show that im not fine? and that im not okay? and that i still think of you every night? i dont believe that anything would have been different..

i hate you..for giving me hopes, and yet dashing it right in front of me in an instant.. but yet, why couldnt i bring myself to hate u? i just can't.

i want to know so many things, knowing that they'll hurt, yet i want to be in the know.. is it better for me to not know anything and be kept in the dark instead? why would i want to know the truth knowing that the truth always hurts and is never consoling? why why why why why?

somebody, please tell me why..

yes i'm tired.. but i'll still continue to put this up.. till the day when i can't take it anymore.. till the day when i break down into pieces.. just like the pieces of my heart which used to be whole..

2005-10-05T15:13:00.000Z

i was watching tv just now.

and came across this commercial ad for a cd compilation.

and the first thing i heard was 'not all seeds can bloom and blossom (direct translation)'

and it struck me. will my seed in her bloom and blossom? coz her's in me has. another classic example of 'time will tell' =(

2005-10-05T14:45:00.000Z

maybe you're rite.

not everyone can do the job of waiting, and i cant say for myself too. i dont know how long can i wait for this thing to end. how much patience have i got? or rather how long am i willing to wait for her?

i should go all out and get what i want. i should give it all my shot and get what i think i should have. i should not wait anymore and wait for time to go by and not doing anything. i should just go get my big missing piece back.

but do i have e courage to do so? am i prepared to face the outcome that i've dreaded? am i in the least prepared..?

2005-10-03T14:21:00.000Z

is it true that if you truely love someone, you ought to let her go, and that you'll be happy if she's happy?
is it true that if someone is meant for you, no mater what, at the end of the day, she'll come back to you no matter how long it takes?
is it true that i should not wait, and i should move on, get on, and if we're really meant to be together, we'll be together again some point later on in life?

so many questions revolving around my head now. should i just take her as a good friend, and continue to care, show concern and do things for her? should i hold on to that hope, that ray of hope, that one day, we'll be back together again?

someone please tell me that waiting for everything is worthwhile, coz i'm very willing to wait, no matter for how long, someone please give me the assurance, coz w/o it, i dont know how much longer i can wait. i can't wait for poly to be over, ns to be over, and i'll be elsewhere studying out of singapore. maybe thats the time i'll wait till.. maybe that will be the time whereby all answers will reveal themselves..

so, is it true that time tells no lies? and with time, everything will be understooded and revealed?